Infinite Life, Infinite Joy

Time for a Change

2006-01-30T17:00:00.000Z

It's been fun working on this blog.

It's time for further expansion and another way of being.

My new blog is called Home Sweet Home!.

Cheers,
EJ

MESSAGE FOR READERS

2006-01-30T16:05:00.004Z

Welcome to my new blog.

It is a place where I share my experiences and insights.

Life, for me, is about play: playing with new ideas, consciously playing with Energy, and playing at being who I am.

Please note that these writings are based on realisations I have and not meant to be taken as instructions or teachings. We all have the answers within us. (See also Maps)

Unless otherwise stated, all articles are copyright © 2005-2012 Enocia Joseph. You have my permission to copy and distribute articles for personal use only. Please include the link to the particular blog. For any other use other than personal, and any comments you might have, please email theoneinall@googlemail.com.

Much gratitude and love to Ben Gilberti for designing the Light fractal.

Thanks for stopping by.

All the very best.

Love Enocia

Articles in Alphabetical Order

2006-01-30T16:00:00.016Z

Great news readers!

I have listed all the articles and pieces here in alphabetical order, which should make things a lot easier for all of us. I shall continue to update the list as I add more articles.

New entries will be posted in date order as usual.

For my current and previous blogs see My Other Blogs.

Unless otherwise stated, all articles are copyright © 2005-2012 Enocia Joseph. You have my permission to copy and distribute articles for personal use only. Please include the link to the particular blog. For any other use other than personal, and any comments you might have, please email Enocia.

Enjoy.

Love always,
Enocia

-- A --

A Christmas Message - Cold Turkey
A Fun Reminder
A Jolly Ride
A Life to Remember
A Lot to be Grateful About
A Love Shared is a Love Shared
A New Day, A New Blog
A New Phase
A Prayer for Women (and Men)
A Reminder - There are No Missed Opportunities
Acceptance
Advertising
After You
An Ocean of Universal Energy
Anomaly or Reality
An Open-and-Shut Case
Are You Normal?
Art Imitating Life; Walking Dead
As Easy as Anything

-- B --

Being a Ship's Captain
Being in the Present
Birds of a Feather Flock Together

-- C --

Captain One Love to the Rescue!
Christmas Decorations
Co-Creating with God
Come-back of the Day
Cor Blimey, Guv'nor!
Core Beliefs
Curiouser and Curiouser

-- D --

Dancing Queen
Déjà Vu
Diets, Diets, and More Diets
DNA
DoBeDoBeDo
Doing What Comes Natural
Don't Know, Don't Care!
Don't Worry

-- E --

Ending Duality - Same Old, Same Old
Excellent Advice, Not!
Expectations
Extras

-- F --

Fast Forward
Fasting
Fear of Being a Clone
Flying with the Wind
Following My Own Rhythm
For Trekkies
Forever in a Moment; When Things Fall Apart

-- G --

Gently Does It
Giving and Receiving
Giving Credit Where It's Due
God Will Fix It
Good Business Sense or What?
Good Intentions
Grace
Great Actors Know How to Be
Guilt Complex

-- H --

Hahaha!
Handle With Care
Hello Love
How Big is Your Cup?
How Do I Feel?
How Lovely to be Proven Wrong!
How To Avoid Blocks

-- I --

I am Alive
I Would Rather Be Grateful, Thank You
If What You're Doing isn't Working
I Have Never Left Home
I'll Be There No Matter What
Information Overload
In the Know
In the Presence of Love
Inner Silence
Intelligence, Intent and Being a Willing Instrument
Is There a Devil?
Is Your Enthusiasm Getting the Better of You?
It is Impossible for Anyone to Be Lost!
It's a Done Deal; Just Say Yes
It's All Happening
It's All You
It's Only a Love Game
It's That Time Again!

-- J --

Joke of the Day
Just Because

-- K --

Knowledge and Freedom

-- L --

Let Yourself Go
Let Yourself Go - Part 2
Let Yourself Go - Part 3
Life is a Game
Life's Purpose
Living in the Eternal Now
Living in the Moment
Lonely Heart
Looking For Love in All The Wrong Places?
Love
Love is All There Is
Love is Always Present
Love is Meeting All Needs Perfectly
Lucid Dreaming - An Alternative View

-- M --

Making Love
Making Something Out of Nothing
Manifesting by the Balloon Technique
Maps
Memories are Made of This
Mind Meld
More Debunking - Energy
My Life Partner

-- N --

New Year's Resolution and Perfection
No Agendas
No Leg to Stand On
No Place Like Home
Nothing But the Best

-- O --

Of Beliefs and Chasing Tails
Of Channels
Of Friendship and Events Beyond One's Control
On Boredom
On Dying
On Perfection
On Supply
Only Love is Shared, Not Problems!
Out of Body Experience (OOBE) - A Breakthrough

-- P --

Phlegm
Plug In
Plug In - 2
Poignant Thought of the Day
Practising Transparency
Practising Transparency - Dissolving Programmes
Pregnancy and Rebirth
Priceless!

-- Q --

Quip of the Day

-- R --

Receiving Unlimited Good
Relative Truth versus Absolute Truth
Retort of the Day

-- S --

Self-Inquiry
Shock Horror!
Some Thoughts About Manifestations
Song of the Day
Sorry!
Soul Mates
Staying Focused on the Mould
Staying Awake to My Real Self
Sweet Enough

-- T --

Text Message
That's Life!
The All There Is
The Art of Letting Go
The Best I Can Offer is To Be Myself
The Biggest Mail Merge Ever
The Creator, Sustainer and Destroyer
The Death Penalty
The Future is Joy
The Game of Life
The Game of Politics
The Game of Receiving
The Hero Within and Without
The Joy of Giving
The Light Versus Darkness Baloney
The Living God
The Myth of Personal Power
The One True Cause
The Pedestal
The Personal and Impersonal Nature of God
The Purpose of Life - Revisited
The Real Purpose of the Senses
The Significance of the Number 40
The Timeless Now
There are No Miracles!
There are No Missed Opportunities
There are No Rules!
To Believe is to Agree With
To Eat or Not To Eat?
Trusting in Divine Order
Two Little Boys
Two Short Planks

-- U --

Umbrellas
Unity Consciousness

-- V --

Vest

-- W --

Water Off a Duck's Back
Ways of Being
What an Idiot!
What Blesses One Blesses All
What is a Human Being?
What is Good is Good For All Time
What is Infinity?
What is Intelligence?
What is Service?
What is Spirit?
What is Time?
What is Truth?
What is Omnipresence Really?
What's It All About?
What's the Magic Word?
What You Believe is Possible is What is Possible For You
When Being Good is Not Enough
Who are You Really?
Who is Thinking Whom?
Win-Win
Without a Cause
Without Love, It is Nothing
Wow! It's Magic!
Wow! It's Magic - Part Deux

-- X --

Xenophobia

-- Y --

Yoo Hoo! Is Anybody Home?
Yo-Yos and Drama Queens

-- Z --

Zenith

How to Avoid Blocks

2006-01-28T14:33:00.000Z

I believe God is the Source of All There Is that is Good. God has devised a way to express all Goodness by appearing as infinite instruments that are meant to receive/express all the Good that He is. Thus, God is playing two roles: the Source and Giver of Goodness and the Receiver and expression of all Goodness.

Since God is all there is, this means that we are all playing a dual role: the Source/Giver being expressed through the infinite instruments/Receiver.

While I am playing my part as Source, it doesn't always follow that what I express always comes through my personality; most of the time Source expresses through other instruments appearing as people, objects, books, animals, nature, experiences etc. My role, therefore, is to realise that there is only the one Source and then let the Source flow effortlessly through whichever instruments He chooses.

Blocks sometimes occur when one expects Source to flow in a particular way when there are unlimited channels Source can flow through. For instance, the other day when I was working on the piece, When Being Good is Not Enough, I found the words weren't flowing and it seemed like a lot of effort. I stopped for a few seconds and realised that All is God. When I resumed writing I was able to see how the Source of all had arranged for the various instruments to play their parts, which unfolded the idea. The story wrote itself in no time.

To avoid blocks I live with the realisation that:

Source/God is all there is; and
Source/God expresses Self through limitless instruments.

Can you imagine what this means? Let's say you are looking for healing. God's limitless healing instruments could be the chair you're sitting on, the computer screen, the people around you, the air you breathe, the ground you're walking on, the clothes you're wearing; everything and anything could be God's healing instrument.

Incidentally, yesterday I noticed this woman on the bus who looked really down. She kept swapping seats. We all got off at the same stop. This morning I saw her near where we live, which is a mile away from where she got off yesterday. I thought to myself, there's probably a reason why our paths have crossed. Maybe, God/Source is working through me to help her or vice versa.

I am open to the limitless ways God is expressing Self.

With love,
Enocia

What's the Magic Word?

2006-01-26T10:34:00.000Z

A child says to his mother: "Can I have some chocolate?"
"What's the magic word?" his mother says.
"Now?"
"No, it's please."

After the child has been given the chocolate his mother says, "What do you say?"
"More?"
"No, thank you."

Well, most of us have gone through this programming. You learn to say "please" and "thank you," or you go without.

While the words "please" and "thank you" can help you get what you want, I believe the real magic word is "love." I'm not just talking about the word but the feeling.

It is Love that brought the world into being. I believe we are here to live as our real Self that is Love. While we are here to be love the irony is that we are also here to love what we love. Put another way, I am here to experience life from my perspective loving what I love.

I have observed that what I love is drawn to me like a magnet. How it happens is beyond human understanding; Love has His own ways. I have also observed that I can't fool Love meaning I can't pretend to love what I don't love. For instance, I love Vimto, Weetabix and chocolate; but I don't love avocado. When I am loving what I love I'm being true to myself.

Yesterday, I wrote in a forum about accents. I said while I love accents there is something about the Italian language or people who speak with Italian accents that appeals to me. I could listen to Italian all day. Later in the evening, my mother and I watched a film called Johnny English. I thought because it was a secret agent spoof with Rowan Atkinson, I would love it. After watching it for a few minutes I wasn't impressed. I just wasn't feeling the love. So I left my mother to it and went to have a bath. When I finished having a bath, I saw my mother had abandoned the film for The Godfather that was being shown on the other channel. I started watching it after Michael Carleone had carried out his first hit and was sent to Sicily to cool off. In one scene, Michael was trying to get permission from a girl's father so he could take her out. They were speaking in Italian. I was entranced. Mama mia! It didn't matter to me what they were saying, I just loved how they were saying it. After that scene, I fell sleep. Besides, I had had my Italian fix.

Many people pooh-pooh reality TV shows. I can't say I love all of them but the ones I have enjoyed have had something special. The last one I watched was Soapstar Superstar, where a group of soap stars were competing in a singing contest for the coveted title. The winner, Richard, was so talented he could sing any song. The judges were amazed how someone so young, (17 I believe), could be so talented. It's not one's age but how open one is to be or feel love. Richard talked about how much he loved playing the piano, his guitar and music. For Richard, it was not just a career but a way of life. And the viewers mirrored his love back by making him the winner.

Each of us has been given the same gift: love. The more you love the more that is mirrored back to you. Life is that simple.

"Can I have some chocolate?"
"What's the magic word?"
"I would love some chocolate."
"You've got it."

All my love,
Enocia

Related articles: A Love Shared is a Love Shared; What You Love, Loves You Back

Win-Win

2006-01-26T10:04:00.000Z

This morning I saw the neighbour I wrote about in the piece, Is Your Enthusiasm Getting the Better of You?

She was all smiles and thanked me for helping her the other day.

She said "There was no need for me to worry. I had lots of time to even meet my friend for a cup of coffee."
"That's excellent!" I said.
"I mustn't get myself flustered," she said.
"I'm glad to hear that."

We wished each other good day.

Well it's a win-win for both of us: she has a great day and I have a great story.

Have a wonderful day, everyone.

Lots of love,
Enocia

Unity Consciousness

2006-01-25T14:36:00.000Z

On one level we all look different. We have our likes and dislikes; we have stuff we feel passionate about. We are diverse and we are proud of it.

On another level, we are made of the same stuff, Love. We are Love.

All is one.

When you realise you are made of the same stuff, you can look at the moon and know that you are made of the same stuff as the moon.

You can look at your neighbour and know that you are made of the same stuff as your neighbour.

All is one.

So when I get a twinge in your body, I don't try to fix it. I look up into the sky at night. I observe stars in the Milky Way. The Intelligence which makes the stars appear; that which makes the Universe appear in its infinite manifestation is the same Intelligence that is quickening my body.

All is one.

That's unity consciousness.

Enocia

When Being Good is Not Enough

2006-01-25T10:37:00.000Z

"Judge not according to the appearance, but judge righteous judgment." (John 7: 24)

"The Lord is everywhere
And always perfect:
What does He care for man's sin
Or the righteousness of man?" (The Bhagavad Gita - The Song of God translated by Swami Prabhavananda & Christopher Isherwood)
Yesterday, this man joined me at the bus stop. I said hello. He asked me if I was going to a certain area and I said yes. He was also going to the same place. I said I was either going to catch the bus going the direct route or the one going via the scenic route. Besides, I was in the mood for the scenic route. The first bus that arrived was the scenic route. Before I said goodbye to the man he told me I was a very "good girl." I didn't know what he meant but I thanked him all the same.

I was also pondering about what a friend had said recently about his experience with spirituality. He was frustrated about knowing truth but not seeing this truth being demonstrated in his life.

How does one walk the spiritual talk? Do you have to be a good person?

On my scenic bus ride, I observed how on one level there appears to be nice areas that are clean and have great recreational facilities; and not so nice areas that are deprived. Some parts of London have people who are friendly; other parts have people who seem hostile.

Another way to define these areas or people is by vibes. You are drawn to people who have positive vibes or have similar vibes as you; and you recoil from people or areas of negative vibes. This way, you choose what areas you wish to live in and others you won't be seen dead in.

Going by appearances or vibes is what I call surface mentality. When I lived with that mentality, there were areas in London I couldn't stand. At one point I so hated London I wanted to emigrate to Australia so I could be away from the stench, pollution and chaos. I was also very sensitive to negative energies. I practised psychic self-defence by creating energy shields around me to protect myself from negative thoughts and emotions, and from electromagnetic waves and pollution. The more I defended myself the more there was to defend myself against.

Many people survive by surface mentality. They focus only on being good, law-abiding, citizens. They live in nice areas, have lovely friends and lead charmed lives. In that case, how come so many good people end up being attacked, involved in an accident, get sick, or affected by some natural disaster? This suggests being good or choosing good experiences doesn't always cut it. Positive thinking is not enough. You have to step out of the surface mentality of appearances and delve deeper to the substance of all appearances, which is Love. Love is Reality.

When you live from Reality, you are no longer distracted by appearances because you know there is only Love. It doesn't matter what's going on around you; you focus only on Reality.

Back to my friend's question about how to walk your talk. I believe it is about walking by faith and not by sight/appearances. For me, it is about realising that Love is all there is. I don't try to figure out how Love is but I trust that the Love is alive and let it be made manifest in His own way. When I find I am in an area that the surface mentality objects to, I remind myself that the substance of everything is Love. Then I observe as Love unfolds in ways that astound the surface mentality.

You know you are walking by Love when you stop trying to defend yourself against anything. Love needs no defence.

Perhaps when that man called me "good" he was seeing me as I really am. Who knows?

With love,
Enocia

Related articles: In the Presence of Love; Ending Duality - Same Old, Same Old

Only Love is Shared, Not Problems!

2006-01-24T10:40:00.000Z

Joy to the earth, the Savior reigns!
Let men their songs employ;
While fields and floods, rocks, hills and plains
Repeat the sounding joy,
Repeat the sounding joy,
Repeat, repeat, the sounding joy. Joy to the World
They say: "A problem shared is a problem halved."

The way I see it, your problem has to be big enough for you to want to share it. In other words, a problem shared is one BIG problem.

Instead of focusing your attention on your problem why not focus on the solution?

I believe there is only one solution to all the problems mankind has dreamed up: Love. We are all seeking to be Love. It is that simple. So why not focus on the feeling of Joy, which is how Love expresses self? Joy is the feeling that unfolds creation.

Did you know that the universe is singing with Joy? It's true. Joy has a signature tune. Granted, Joy doesn't sound the way our voices do, but it resonates as some kind of light frequency. I hear Joy in my head all the time.

Joy is not something you try to create. it's more a discovery of what is already present. I remember I used to do a lot of space clearing by blessing the room or area with Joy. I would think "I bless this room with Joy" and then observe what happened. Suddenly, people in the room would start making jokes and having a laugh. I would find this quite entertaining. The Joy would soon dissipate and the vibration of the room would appear to return to normal, as in doom and gloom. I later realised I was trying to create Joy. What is created has a beginning and ending. Joy is limitless. Since Joy is always present, this also means that Joy is also alive in me. I only have to remember/discover that I am Joy.

If Joy is our true nature, how come we don't always remember to feel joyful?

Imagine you go to sleep one night on the 24 January 2006, but when you wake up you find yourself in pre-historic civilisation. There is no electricity. People are eating raw meat. While you can no longer remember what life was like in 2006, you have a knowing that there is a better way to live. One day you are inspired to start rubbing two pieces of sticks together. People in your tribe think you are crazy but you ignore them and keep on rubbing. You rub and rub until you see smoke coming out of the sticks. Then the smoke disappears. This inspires you to keep on rubbing. You persist until you see some more smoke. You have a knowing to put some dried leaves on top of the smoke. Soon there is a spark that ignites into a flame.

Though it might seem as if you invented fire, you have actually discovered fire. Now you can have your steak rare, medium or well done; you can keep yourself warm; and you can even have light.

Just like the prehistoric folks who had a knowing of fire and followed their intuition, so do most of us have a knowing that our nature is Joy. To ignite the Joy that we are, we have to persist by remembering who we are until it reaches a point when the spark catches fire. Now that you can feel the Joy within and without, you simply let the flame spread of its own accord like wild fire.

I no longer focus on problems but on Joy because I know Joy has the power to transmute all experiences of fear into experiences of Joy. The only time it's worth sharing a problem is when I want to have a good laugh at the problem.

In Joy,
Enocia

Related articles: Is Your Enthusiasm Getting the Better of You?; Smile Please!

A Love Shared is a Love Shared

2006-01-23T15:30:00.000Z

Yesterday evening I was browsing in a bookshop. They started playing compilations from Michael Jackson's albums. There are some of his albums I love such as "Off the Wall", "Thriller", and "Bad." There was a time when I couldn't get to sleep without listening to the "Off the Wall" album. It felt like a love connection. I'm not too keen on the others. I decided I would listen to the songs from the albums I love and then mentally switch off.

I noticed that as soon as the song started for the later albums they stopped it. Then they started playing the album from scratch. I was curious about this so I went to the information desk to ask what was going on.

"Are you the one playing the Michael Jackson album?"

"Yes," he said with hesitation. "Why?"

"I was just thinking how much I love Michael Jackson's first three albums and not too keen on the others," I said. "I noticed you didn't play songs from his later albums."

"That's because the rest of them are crap!"

I wouldn't have put it that tactfully, but I could understand where he was coming from.

Also, while I was listening to the songs, I had a thought that nowadays people are taking the piss dumping magazines on chairs and not returning them to the shelf. I made a mental note to return the books I was browsing back where I had found them. The next thing I knew an announcement came on requesting customers to please return magazines and books back to the shelf. They made another announcement later.

Blimey! We really are sharing the one Love!

With love,
Enocia

Is Your Enthusiasm Getting the Better of You?

2006-01-23T11:29:00.000Z

It's good to have enthusiasm. This shows you have passion for life. When I'm feeling really enthusiastic, it's as if I'm going to fly off. It's a wonderful feeling. There's only one catch: if you don't use enthusiasm correctly, it will get the better of you.

Yesterday, I clocked our neighbour on the bus I was getting on. She was busy talking to the driver so I didn't think she'd noticed me. She has a reputation for complaining about her aches and pains. I sat right at the back of the bus but she made a beeline for me. She asked me how my mother was. Then she started telling me about her aches and pains. She lifted up her skirt and showed me her swollen knee joint.

"You still walk really fast considering," I said.
"Yes, but my legs really hurt. I can't walk very far."
"It doesn't seem to be getting to you," I said. "You seem very happy."
"I can't let it get to me," she said.
"Well, good for you!"

She said the doctors have got no cure for arthritis and she has to keep taking pills. I could only wish her the very best. She resumed her conversation with the driver, telling him about her aches and pains.

On my way to do my mother's shopping this morning, the same neighbour met me at the bus stop. This time she was very flustered. She complained how she had to walk to the next bus stop because our local bus hadn't turned up. She said she had so much to do in such a short space of time. I told her to stay calm. My bus arrived. It wasn't the one she wanted but she said she'll get on it and change a few stops down. She wanted me to sit next to her. She was on her morning errand for the elderly in our neighbourhood and she was worried she wouldn't be able to achieve all she had set out to. I patted her arm and told her to relax. I thought how wonderful it is that love is all there is and there is no need to worry about a thing.

"Isn't that just typical?" She pointed to the bus she wanted overtaking our bus. "I'm never going to catch it now."
"You'll catch it at the next stop."
"No I won't, she said. "It's way ahead of us."
"Yes, you will."

At the next stop we both got off. I ran in front of her to stop the bus so she could get on the bus.

I believe my neighbour is a classic example of misplaced enthusiasm. One definition of enthusiasm is

"Great excitement for or interest in a subject or cause." Dictionary.com
My neighbour has bundles of enthusiasm. She's always rushing about running errands for her neighbours. The problem is how she's directing that energy is giving her what she doesn't want instead of what she does.

To manifest anything you need to feel enthusiasm. There are two types of enthusiasm: fear and love. Are you thinking you wish to experience such and such and yet you keep getting the opposite results? It could be your enthusiasm doesn't match your intent.

When you are enthusiastic about fear it "empowers" you to dream up worse case scenarios; and that is what you experience as your reality. This suggests that it is not your actual intent that matters but your feelings about it. You could have the best intention in the world but if you're coming from fear, it's down the plug hole.

How do you get your enthusiasm to always be in alignment with your intent?

You have to feel joyful. Joy is the Universe showing enthusiasm.

How do you stop attracting situations you don't want to experience?

Realise that you have enthusiasm and your enthusiasm is a feeling of joy.

If you have a thought to achieve something, feel the joy of getting the thing done and then let it go.

Trust in the process.

Always remember that worry is fear's way of showing enthusiasm.

Be enthusiastic; be joyful.

Love Enocia

Fast Forward

2006-01-21T14:44:00.000Z

Imagine if you could manifest your thoughts and desires instantly? This means all thoughts that comes to mind, yours or the whole of humanity, are instantly manifested. How would you cope with this?

Well, you could develop discipline so you're not able to consciously pick up on all thoughts; or

You could raise yourself to a level that is beyond duality, therefore, any thought that comes to mind is always going to be good.

What if you decide to exercise your freewill and your choices instantly manifest in your life experience? What if it is something you don't really want to experience but it remains in place because sometimes things take time to undo?

I remember a while back when I was sitting on a park bench. I was all alone. I imagined light around me and a light being beside me. Before you could say "speed of light" a young man appeared on his bicycle. He looked in his early twenties, over 6 feet tall with blond hair, and the bluest eyes. He said he was from Italy. I never realised there were blond Italians. He said his English wasn't very good; his English was a lot better than my Italian. He sat beside me and we chatted for a while. He wanted to hold my hands and I let him. He wanted me to go out with him but I said I just wanted to be friends. When I got up to leave he asked me for a kiss. I gave him a peck but he wanted a full-on snog. I refused. He decided to accompany me on my walk. He kept asking me to go out with him and I kept saying no. I even told him I was a Born-Again Christian who only dates Born-Again Christians, but that didn't work either. He was now getting angry. There was only one thing to do: in thought I called out "God help!" My Italian friend abruptly got on his bike and rode off. He didn't even say goodbye! Cheeky!

Last night I got this brain wave to play with Light. As I walked from the bus stop home to my house, I thought "I am Light; I see only Light." My eyesight got blurry. The next thing you know I could see only light. I had a thought that I was getting a migraine attack. By the time I arrived home, I had lost my vision, in the human sense. I went to lie down. Before I closed my eyes, I realised that all is Love and thanked God for His Presence. Then I lost consciousness meaning I couldn't think or understand anything. This is not the same as being in silence when I can still have understanding. In this state, I cannot string sentences together because I see no connection between words. Everything just is. I did have a bit of a headache but it only felt like a slight thud. After a couple of hours or so, I was back to normal.

Formally, when I used to have migraines, I would have the sight-loss followed by nausea, and stomach upset. When the headache finally arrived, it would last for hours, sometimes days. Thank God for a speedy recovery.

It seems to me that there are times when I make choices, freewill choices that have to be played out. I accept that as I have used my freewill, it's up to me to undo what I've done. But there is no reason why an exercise of freewill has to last longer than necessary.

Imagine watching a video or DVD of your favourite film. If there is something on the video you don't want to see, you fast forward it to a part you do want to see, right? Why not treat one's freewill choices like a video by fast forwarding an experience you chose but no longer wish to experience. How? By realising that God's Love is all there is. Love fast forwards unnecessary pain and suffering. If the experience doesn't go away then Love shows His presence in the experience.

I can choose to exercise freewill or be All the Love There Is.

Love doesn't judge; Love doesn't hurt; Love accepts all my choices. Love is always there waiting for me to realise His Presence.

Love is all there is.

Enocia

In the Presence of Love

2006-01-21T11:52:00.000Z

[DIVINE LOVE] is my shepherd; I shall not want.
[LOVE] maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
[LOVE] leadeth me beside the still waters.
[LOVE] restoreth my soul [spiritual sense]:
[Love] leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for [LOVE] is with me;
[LOVE's]rod and [LOVE'S] staff they comfort me.
[LOVE] prepareth a table before me in the presence of mine enemies:
[LOVE] anointeth my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life;
and I will dwell in the house [the consciousness] of [LOVE] for ever. (PSALM 23 as Adapted by Mary Baker Eddy in Science and Health)
Yesterday morning I met an old college friend at the bus stop. It turned out she was waiting for the same bus I was waiting for. She was on her way to work. She said she was late for work but she wasn't bothered. She was sick of working for other people.

On route, I told her I had recently made contact with another college friend who now lives in Australia. I shared with her my experiences in Australia. I said I intend to go backpacking in Australia again as it is a wonderful country. She said she couldn't imagine going travelling on her own, especially in a country where she doesn't know anyone. She said she would have no problem travelling in America as she has friends she could call if she got into trouble. I said I have had lots of wonderful adventures on my own. I told her it helps that I believe in God and God is Love; and Love is everywhere. Sometimes, when you are not aware of this love life can seem scary.

I told her about how when I used to share a house with some girls, the girls were scared to walk down a local alleyway late at night. Two of my flat mates had been mugged on that same alley. I still used to walk down the alley late at night as it was a shortcut, and I was not scared.

"Surely, you should have listened to your flatmates who had been attacked," my friend said.

"I only listened to what I knew to be true, that God's love is ever present, and Love doesn't hurt."

"I think I understand where you're coming from," she said. "But surely, Love gives you the wisdom to know when to walk down a dark alley late at night, particularly when you've heard of people being attacked on the same alleyway?"

"That's not how I see it. There's no point me knowing God's love in theory without testing it. Don't get me wrong, I don't deliberately set out to test God's love, but it was a toss between using the alley and arriving home in a few minutes, or using the scenic route and taking ages. Why should I go round the houses when I can trust that God's love is ever present?" I said.

"Maybe, God arranged for you to walk in the alley at a time when no one was around."

"All I know is that God's love is ever present. Love can even change one's intention from attack to love so all is in harmony."

"You have to be careful, you know. Just because you believe in Love doesn't mean you have to put yourself at risk."

"The way I see it, Love is all there is. You can't have fear and love in the same space. Either you believe in fear, or you believe in love; not both."

Like I said, I don't set out to put myself in difficult situations for the sake of proving love's presence. There is no need to. There are only difficult situations if you think there are. To see one road as safe and another as unsafe is opening oneself to being attacked. With that kind of thinking, you could be attacked anywhere, even in places others consider safe. I would rather take my chances in Love.

Later in the evening when I was coming back home on the bus, three lads sat in front of me. One had his music blaring away. I was in no mood to listen to music; beside, it sounded like a lot of noise. I decided that instead of resisting the music I would simply accept the truth of what is: Love is all there is. I went back to the book I was reading. The music was still blaring away. Then I peeked at one of the lads facing me. He was the spitting image of Matt Damon, one of my favourite actors. When the lad smiled he looked so much like him. Why hadn't I noticed this before? Now I could see that Matt and his friends were having fun listening to their music. They even played a few songs I liked. They also kept me company for the rest of my journey.

Love is truly all there is. All I have to do is constantly remember Love's presence, and stay open to the limitless ways love is being.

With love,
Enocia

To Eat or Not To Eat?

2006-01-20T12:58:00.000Z

Yesterday evening, I had a thought that I hadn't eaten anything all day. Then I remembered I had a bowl of Weetabix (breakfast cereal) earlier.

It got me thinking: "What's the difference between forgetting that I have eaten and forgetting that I haven't eaten?"

See, I sometimes forget after I've eaten something. I look at my stomach and it doesn't show any evidence of having had any food. Memory loss comes in very handy when I'm gorging on chocolate. I have had six bars in a row at one sitting.

There are times when I forget that I haven't eaten and can go for long periods without any food. Hmmm! I wonder if this has something to do with why I haven't had any desire for chocolate in 4 days; this is a tad worrying.

To eat or not to eat?

It really makes no difference. I eat and stay the same; I don't eat and stay the same. Food neither makes me gain nor lose weight, unless I believe it does.

Why do I eat?

Out of habit and because it's fun.

Enocia

Related articles: The Lost Art of Forgetting; To Remember is to Forget

Ways of Being

2006-01-20T11:06:00.000Z

Last Sunday I didn't go out. My mother was also at home with me. By late afternoon I was feeling a bit restless. I felt like having a nap on the sofa. Mum asked if I wanted some more food. I said I would have some after taking a nap. I lay down for a minute then I got up and said I was ready for some food.

"I thought you said you were lying down?" mum said.
"I did, and I have. I am no longer tired."
"But you were only lying down for a moment?" she said.
"That was enough rest for me, things happen very quickly in my universe."
"Well, you'll have to bear with me," mum said, as she tried to get up from her chair. "I am a bit slow in my universe."

I remember when I used to do temp work. After a day, I would feel as if I'd been in the company for years and feel it's time to leave. A week's contract felt like forever. My longest contract was a year and it felt like I had been there for eternity.

I believe there really is no need for me to have an experience longer than necessary. Sometimes a moment is only what is needed. At other times, I will have an insight and use that insight to experience life for longer periods. That doesn't mean I need to use the same insight forever. There is always something new to unfold. To attach to one way of being is to limit myself.

The bottom line is there is something that is always constant: God, The All There Is. But The All There Is is too vast to even fathom. You could spend every moment experiencing an aspect of God and you wouldn't make a dent on Its infinitude. So I tend to have an experience, note down my realisations of the experience, and then let it go. I know tomorrow is a new day for even more wonderful adventures.

I guess what I'm saying is this website is a record of ways of being. No more, no less.

With love,
Enocia

The Joy of Giving

2006-01-19T15:00:00.000Z

I believe God/Unlimited Good is all there is. All of life is God expressing Himself. You see, God is playing a game of giving and receiving. As Source He is All There Is. In order to experience the joy of giving, God makes Himself appear as infinite vessels to receive All That He Is. God appearing as infinite vessels is the equivalent of browsers needed in order to access this website. There is only one of this website but billions of people could access it if they have browsers.

When you realise that God is All There Is, you are aware that Source is All There is. You realise that you are also Source which means you also have limitless capacity to Be Unlimited Good. In order to experience who you are, you have to "create" vessels to give of yourself. Otherwise, you are not able to experience the Unlimited Good that you are.

Vessels come in limitless ways. They could be ideas you share on the Internet; or you are inspired to work on a creative project which serves as a vessel. Then you get to experience the joy of giving. And as you give or have the intention to give, you also receive.

For instance, if you have the intention to give away something tangible, feel the joy of giving it away. You’ll be amazed how this intention is made manifest in abundant supply so you can give it away.

Being the Love That I Am,
Enocia

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Anomaly or Reality?

2006-01-19T14:26:00.000Z

I've been working on the Internet in the library. There are 20 computers here and I've been on number 8. Someone wanted to log into a particular website but she couldn't on her computer. I tried on mine and it worked perfectly. They logged her onto another computer. She tried it and again it didn't work while it worked on mine. Then the whole system went down. Guess what? I am the only one still connected.

The library staff were at first baffled by this anomaly, then they ignored me. They've been turning people away saying the Internet is down, while I've been browsing. They think I'm working on the word processing. I mean, how can one person be connected to the Internet when the whole library system is down?

I see this experience as representing what can happen when you refuse to buy into consensus belief. I know that I live in a Spirit universe, and all forms are God in manifestation.

There is no such thing as an anomaly. There is only Reality.

God is all there is.

Enocia

Pregnancy and Rebirth

2006-01-19T10:20:00.000Z

I've often wondered what would happen if pregnant women did not interfere in their baby's development by consulting with doctors, reading books, taking various pills and potions, and having various expectations. I believe the baby will be so perfect it will be ethereal. Alas, this is not the case.

The only way one can have such perfection is when the mother holds a perfect image of the baby in thought by accepting that the baby is Spirit and is already perfect. There is nothing she has to do but be the channel, trust in the process, and let the child come forth in due season. How many mothers think this way? Not a lot. Most people have got used to taking medicines, for instance. Someone gets an itch in her throat and she's rushing off to the bathroom cabinet to take some potion. People have been programmed all their lives to take something to make themselves feel better. So you can't expect a mother who is used to taking pills and seeing herself as flesh and blood to treat her pregnancy in another way. Out of habit, she'll use a method she knows that works for her.

The good news is all is not lost. We have all been given another chance to put things right. How? By realising that we are Spirit. This is what it means to be "born again." As Spirit, my mind is being transformed, which transforms my body into Spirit. Unlike the pregnant woman who interferes with the process, all I have to do is know that I am Spirit and trust in the perfection of Spirit to unfold in Her own way. I must put nothing in the way.

I am a spirit foetus in the Spirit womb.

I trust that I am always nourished by Spirit.
I know that it is the Spirit that quickens my whole being.
I live in a Spirit universe.
I know that I am Spirit in manifestation.
I trust in Spirit.

With love,
Enocia

I am Alive

2006-01-18T13:26:00.000Z

I'm definitely feeling a change in my body.

At first, I went through a phase of feeling sharp, needle-like, sensations on my arms and legs. Sometimes they felt like electric shocks and were very unpleasant.

I'm now constantly feeling a Presence around me that feels like tingling sensations all around my body. It feels like live electric current without the electric shocks.

As I wrote in a previous piece, when I fall asleep and am dreaming, I lose awareness of the Presence. I believe the Presence is Life. It is in this Presence that I have my being.

I also realise that there is no point me trying to heal parts of my body that I believe need healing. All I need to do is be aware that I am the Presence and the rest takes care of itself.

Shiver me timbers! I am A-LIVE!

Enocia

What is Omnipresence Really?

2006-01-18T10:38:00.000Z

God is omnipresence. This means that God is everywhere present; at least that is the theory, but not how I experience God's omnipresence.

I love to sleep. I could sleep for England. I love the whole ritual of preparing for bedtime. I also look forward to dreaming though I can only recall a few of my dreams. I tend to meditate and then drift off to sleep. I used to feel rested after a good night's sleep. Now things have changed. These days, I spend more time awake than asleep; and when I do fall asleep I don't feel rested. I find that I wake up with either a blocked nose or a splitting headache.

Last night I woke up with a headache, again. The interesting thing is I could also hear ringing in my ears, the type doctors diagnose as tinnitus. I shifted to Spirit mode by reminding myself that there is nothing but God. Like magic, the ringing stopped and the headache disappeared. I felt my body losing its density. I felt a Presence that feels like a tingling sensation all around me until I lost all sense of a separate self. I was one with the Presence. I stayed in this state for some time. Eventually I fell asleep. When I woke up from another dream, which I can't now recall, my head felt like someone was having a jamming session in it. Again, I switched perspective to Spirit and the headache went away.

I have also observed when I wake up from sleep how I am straddling two realities: there is the me that needs to have a pee; and the me that doesn't need to pee. If I can't be bothered to get up, I switch to the me that doesn't need to pee, by simply thinking that I am Spirit. When I finally get up, I'm back to the me that pees and rush to the loo.

If God is everywhere, how come He is not present in my dreams? Why do I have to shift perspective to experience God's presence? It seems to me there is the dream reality where you can think you are separate and doing your own thing. This dream reality does not only occur while one is asleep, most of the time it occurs while one is supposed to be awake.

I have found when I am consciously at one with the Presence, I can have thoughts, mostly pondering on ideas I am going to write about. But when I am not in the Presence, as in dreaming, well, I am subject to all sorts which puts me out of sorts.

As I see it, the purpose of life is to live as Spirit. This means always being aware that the Omnipresent One, who is always awake, is all there is. Then there is no need to sleep; or if you do sleep you have a dreamless sleep. If you do sleep and do dream, then the dream has a purpose which could be a revelation from God.

With love,
Enocia

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Relative Truth versus Absolute Truth

2006-01-17T10:59:00.000Z

There is a paradigm that states that one should be aware of one's words, particularly the use of the "I Am" which it is believed has creative powers. Thus, if you think or say "I am tired" you are calling on the power of the "I Am" to make you tired and you will end up feeling tired. I believe this is only true from a relative truth perspective. What do I mean by this?

I woke up this morning with a splitting headache. The feeling was very much real from a relative perspective.I also knew that for me to have a headache has to mean one thing - it is an experience of my individual movie script. What do I mean by my individual movie script?

I see life as a movie script. Once the scriptwriter has an idea of plot, he creates various scenarios, characters and dialogues to make his vision come to life. When watching the movie, I don't take the dialogues out of context. I know the dialogues have a purpose which is to move the plot to its denouement. Thus, for me to think that "I have a headache" has to be part of my individual movie script. My individual movie script is relative truth, but not the Absolute Truth.

What is the Absolute Truth?

The Absolute Truth is there is only one "I" having life.
The one "I" never sleeps nor has He ever been asleep.
The one "I" is always awake.
The one "I" is awareness.

Every day I use words as communication but these words are part of my movie script or relative truth and have nothing to do with Absolute Truth.

Here are a few examples of my relative truth.

I am feeling sleepy.
Relatively speaking, this is true. From an Absolute Truth perspective, this statement is a lie because the one "I" never gets tired or falls asleep.

I am hungry.
Relative truth; lie in Absolute Truth sense. The one "I" is inexhaustible energy.

I have a headache.
Relative truth; lie in Absolute Truth sense. The one "I" is not limited to one body nor does He feel in a human sense. If that were even true, everyone would have a headache.

I feel cold.
Relative truth; lie in Absolute Truth sense. The one "I" cannot feel hot or cold.

I am skinny.
Relative truth; lie in Absolute Truth sense. The one "I" is everything, therefore, indefinable.

I am living with my mother.
Relative truth; lie in Absolute Truth sense. The one "I" is everywhere present so which mother is this?

I am typing this article.
Relative truth; lie in Absolute Truth sense. The one "I" is everywhere present so this must mean that everyone is typing.

Is it possible to experience life as the one "I"?
Yes, by realising there is only the one "I" that is appearing as infinite forms and as the invisible.

Let's look at the example "I am typing this article."
This means that the one "I" is the ideas, the words, and the resources. The one "I" is the doer. There is no Enocia, there is only the one "I" doing and being all things.

In a way the one "I" experience is a bigger movie script where the one "I" appears as the words and experiences. The one "I" is all there is. So let's say I was involved in a discussion. The one "I" is the people involved in the discussion; the one "I" might appear as the words needed to respond or might appear as silence.

When you realise there is only the one "I" being all things, it takes the pressure off about "being awake" as has been popularised in spiritual circles. The one "I" who is all has never been asleep; He is always awake. One who realises there is only one "I" having life is awake for there is no other but the one who is awake.

In case you're wondering how I got rid of the headache, I simply reminded myself of the Absolute Truth: "Only one exists."

With love,
Enocia

The Hero Within and Without

2006-01-16T10:45:00.000Z

You’ve go to search for the hero inside yourself,
Search for the secrets you hide.
Search for the hero inside yourself
Until you find the key to your life. Search for the Hero, M People
Imagine you're waiting for a bus. Suddenly, Superman arrives. He tries to lift you up.

"Whoa! What do you think you're doing?" you say.

"I'm trying to fly you to your destination."

"You're having a laugh, aren't you?" you say. "This is real life, mate, not Metropolis. You have no powers here."

"You're so wrong," Superman says. "I have super-hearing, super-sight, and I can move at the speed of light."

"Go away!" you say. "Come to think of it, I think I'm dreaming. Superman does not exist. I must wake out of this dream."

But wait, this is not as mad as it sounds. What if you are living in the same reality as Superman, and all the other superheroes, but you just don't realise it?

This happened yesterday. I am about to enter a room. I believe the door is wide open but it isn't. I end up hitting my head hard against it. I think to myself: "That didn't happen. I am Spirit." I feel my head becoming less dense. The pain dissolves instantly.

While I occasionally have "accidents", it's becoming like second-nature to me now to remember that I am Spirit. Spirit is the realm of ideas and Imagination. Spirit and ideas are made of the same stuff. Ideas don't get hurt unless of course they are comic character ideas that have been designed that way. Even so, comic characters tend to bounce back anyway.

So when I realise myself as Spirit, I am saying that I am not flesh and blood but an idea. Don't ask me how it works; all I know is my body feels intangible, as if my body is empty space. I've had moments of panic when I've had to weigh myself to check that I still exist. Hahaha.

The Universe is not material, it is spiritual. In other words, the Universe is Imagination, a realm of ideas. There is no difference between superheroes and us. We are all made of the same stuff. It's just that we think of ourselves as mortals having a material existence.

Earlier today while I was waiting at a bus stop, I observed many lorries. I marvelled at their sizes. All of a sudden, there were all these lorries driving past. While there was no traffic, I imagined the longest lorry ever in the space in front of me. Within a few seconds, the space was filled with a long truck, the type that has 12 wheels. Wow! I dreamed up another and the space was soon filled up by another super-lorry! Awesome!

What we see as space is nothing but Imagination. In empty space all sorts of characters and superheroes exist. There are mythical characters, gods, angels and whatever you could imagine. The world of ideas is all goodness, of course, unless you fancy yourself as an anti-hero.

There is no need to search for the hero. We are all super-heroes.

Enocia

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What is Good is Good for All Time

2006-01-14T13:15:00.000Z

God is The All There Is; and The All There Is is unlimited Good. This means all that we experience is The All There Is in manifestation, and they are good and good for all time.

What do I mean by good? Good is the intention of a thing to make life fun, joyful, peaceful, loving etc.

You're wrong! Not all of creation is good. Fire can keep you warm, and even cook your meal, but fire can also cause you injury. Does this mean God did not create fire?

Fire is The All There Is in manifestation, therefore, fire is always good.

How come people can get burnt by fire? How come fire can cause so much destruction?

That depends on one's perception of fire. The All There Is is not material but Spirit, thus all that we experience is spiritual. When fire is experienced as its real nature, spiritual, it does not destroy or cause harm.

Hmmm! Not sure about that. Anyway, what about water?

Water is The All There Is in manifestation. Water has unlimited uses and they are all good.

I hate to put a fly in the ointment but how come water is capable of so much destruction, such as floods? One can even choke on water and die.

Water is not material but spiritual. Spirit does not cause injury or harm in any way. Only when one perceives something as material do you dream that something is against you. I have scalded my hand with boiling water and reversed the effect by remembering that "I am Spirit" and it was instantly healed.

Hey, what about humans? Are humans all good?

Humanity is The All There Is in manifestation and humanity is all good.

How can humanity be all good when there is so much war and violence on earth?

Humans are Spirit and Spirit cannot attack itself. It is the nature of Spirit to be in harmony.

The All There Is is Spirit. No matter how things appear, they are Spirit. And Spirit is good for all time.

Spirit is The All There Is.

Enocia

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No Place Like Home

2006-01-14T13:00:00.000Z

Every day I embark on a new journey.

I experience adventures, fun, joy, love, peace and wisdom.

It doesn't matter what my accomplishments, success or failure, there is always someone who accepts me no matter what.

This someone is always there for me.
This someone loves me more than I will ever know.
This someone always welcomes me back home with open arms.
This someone is the silence within.

When I am in silence I am home.

Enocia

The All There Is

2006-01-14T10:51:00.000Z

"There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy." (Hamlet, William Shakespeare)

"But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him." (1 Corinthians 2: 9)
God is The All There Is.

The All There Is is manifest and unmanifest energy. All that we experience as forms is The All There Is in manifestation. If you believe what you can experience with your senses is all there is, you're limiting yourself. Music, for instance, exists as unmanifest energy and as it takes form, it becomes less refined and appears as various frequencies. It is consciousness, the receiving instrument, that gives the frequency form. If the consciousness is human, then music will appear in a human way; if the consciousness is a dog, it is perceived in a dog way; or different species will perceive music in their own way.

The other night, after my mother and I had been watching Soapstar Superstars, which is a singing contest for British TV soap stars, I asked her how low she could sing. Both of us sang as low as we possibly could. What about how high we could both go? She tried to sing as high as possible. As for me, I didn't sing a single note, as I didn't have to.

"See mum, my note is so high you can't pick it up with your human hearing. So I win. Ha!"

A computer is another example of The All There Is in manifestation. That doesn't mean this is all there is to being a computer. We have seen how computers are constantly being developed. What we call "evolution" is refined Energy being picked up by the human instrument and being manifested as new versions of technology. And so it continues.

Why wait for someone to develop an idea when you can access The All There Is now?

In the game I mentioned earlier about trying to sing at a very high pitch, I said the notes were so high they were indiscernible by the senses. Actually, I cheated; I had simply remained in silence. The unmanifest state is silence.

If God is The All There Is, how come it is popularly believed that God communicates in silence?

Music is The All There Is in manifestation that one can experience in a human form. I also know music exists in other forms indiscernible by humans, and it gets so refined that it is unmanifest. This means God communicates in as many ways as music appears. Silence, however, enables one to experience the infinite ways music is being.

One can apply the concept of silence to all aspects of life. At the back of your mind, you have the intention of whatever you wish to experience then immerse yourself in silence, The All There Is, and then trust in The All There Is to manifest in the limitless ways there are.

Recently, I had a dream where I was shown how everything I wish to experience already exists now. I was told to see all experiences as balloons in the sky; all I have to do is reach out and pull the string of the balloon I wish to experience. I was not to worry about how it would be made manifest but just trust in the process. The balloon technique is one fun way of experiencing The All There Is.

Everyone has access to The All There Is now. Go into the silence and be all there is to be.

With love,
Enocia

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Diets, Diets, and More Diets

2006-01-13T12:52:00.000Z

In January, there are usually adverts galore encouraging people to go on diets to lose the excess fat they accumulated over the Christmas period. This is based on the belief that food can make you put on weight, make you ill or whatever. If you buy into this belief, this means that what you ate a month ago is still with you as fatty deposits on your hips, thighs and stomach. Most of these adverts are aimed at women; though of course men are expected to want to look fit and healthy.

There is a mad rush for those who feel they need to lose weight to get new keep-fit videos, try new diets, alternative therapies, or whatever to attain their ideal weight. The problem with losing the weight is there is usually excess skin holding on for dear life. People either have to do exercises to get themselves toned up or those who can affort it have the excess skin removed via cosmetic surgery.

Last night I watched a programme on television about a woman who had gone from being a size 20 to size 8. I can't recall how much weight she had lost. She had all this excess skin on her stomach and her thighs and bottom. The television programme carried out a survey for people to guess her age; they guessed her average age as 55. The woman was actually 42 years old. So the programme got her to have cosmetic surgery to get rid of the excess skin, have cosmetic dentistry, get her hair seen to, and a new wardrobe. Then they did another survey for people to guess how old she was. Her average age was now 41.

Imagine going through so much pain for what, so you can look good? There's nothing wrong with wanting to look perfect. But to go under a knife? I have to draw the line somewhere.

A friend once told me about a woman who had been trying to lose weight for years. She went to a Christian Science talk about how God is good and the substance of all. Something in the woman clicked. When she got up, she found she had lost all the weight she wanted to lose without any excess skin.

Sometimes, there are people who want to gain weight so they try all sorts of diets. In the book, Autobiography of a Yogi, the writer, Yogananda, describes how his guru helped him put on weight.

One afternoon during my early months at the ashram, found Sri Yukteswar's eyes fixed on me piercingly.

"You are too thin, Mukunda."

His remark struck a sensitive point. That my sunken eyes and emaciated appearance were far from my liking was testified to by rows of tonics in my room at Calcutta. Nothing availed; chronic dyspepsia had pursued me since childhood. My despair reached an occasional zenith when I asked myself if it were worth-while to carry on this life with a body so unsound.

"Medicines have limitations; the creative life-force has none. Believe that: you shall be well and strong."

Sri Yukteswar's words aroused a conviction of personally-applicable truth which no other healer—and I had tried many!—had been able to summon within me.

Day by day, behold! I waxed. Two weeks after Master's hidden blessing, I had accumulated the invigorating weight which eluded me in the past. My persistent stomach ailments vanished with a lifelong permanency. On later occasions I witnessed my guru's instantaneous divine healings of persons suffering from ominous disease—tuberculosis, diabetes, epilepsy, or paralysis. Not one could have been more grateful for his cure than I was at sudden freedom from my cadaverous aspect. Years in My Master's Heritage
God's ways are beyond human beliefs and understanding. This is why I do not pay any attention to diets. I know God sustains me and keeps my body in health.

I trust only in God.

Enocia

Being a Ship's Captain

2006-01-13T11:13:00.000Z

In last night's episode of Star Trek Voyager called Nightingale, Ensign Harry Kim manages to persuade his captain to let him take command of a Kraylor ship, whose captain has been killed in a battle. The captain suggests Harry should take Seven-of-Nine with him on his mission.

Seven-of-Nine observes that Harry Kim is not delegating responsibility; she reminds Harry that a captain is meant to give out orders and trust that his orders will be carried out. At the end of the episode, Harry realises he has a lot to learn about being in command of a crew.

For Harry to make a good captain he has to, of course, be fully conversant with all aspects of the ship, ship protocol, and its command structure. A captain ensures that he has the right crew; he then trusts in his crews’ capabilities to perform their jobs.

The notion of the captain's role could be applied to understanding how God works.

Imagine a Power and Intelligence that is limitless. Imagine a power that is infinitely greater than the atom bomb. Then imagine this Power and Intelligence occupying all space. This Power and Intelligence is God. The Intelligence doesn't need man's help. The Intelligence that manifests stars, planets and galaxies is doing Its work perfectly without human knowledge or understanding. Man cannot co-create with God in terms of assisting in creation, but man can co-create with God by letting the Intelligence do Its work without interference.

A captain who gives out his orders and trusts in his crew to carry them out is the equivalent of one who is co-creating with God in the latter sense. A co-creator realises that "God is all there is" and then trusts that the Infinite Intelligence, which occupies all space, is doing an excellent job.

I am the captain of my ship.
I trust in the Intelligence of my crew to carry out my orders.

Enocia

A Prayer for Women (and Men)

2006-01-13T10:19:00.000Z

A friend sent me this by email. Love it!

Love,
EJ

Doing What Comes Natural

2006-01-12T11:37:00.000Z

Over the last few days, I've been watching a new reality TV show called Soapstar Superstar, where soap stars compete to become singing superstar champion; and also help raise money for charity, of course.

While there are some talented singers in the show, my favourite is Lee. I like Lee because of his attitude to singing. On one day his voice coach was telling him off for staying out late the previous night but he wasn't bothered. Lee loves to sing and he's doing what comes natural. In other words, singing is not a head trip thing, it comes from the heart.

In last night's episode, the singers had to "go acoustic" as in not having a backing band just the bare minimum. The focus was on the voice. They all performed brilliantly. When Roxy, who was meant to be "nursing a sore throat," was asked how she managed to pull it off, she said the song came from her heart and not from her throat. Well said.

Too many performers think instead of letting the song, music or whatever express through them. All songs exist as essence; all singers and song writers need to do is let it express through them. When this happens the performer is described as having "raw talent" or being a natural.

My mother recently told me that I would be great at singing and modelling. I told her I was already doing what I am great at - writing. (Saying that, I would love to be a nude model. For some reason, this appeals to me).

Writing comes natural because I don't have to think about it. The ideas I receive are always complete. All I have to do is write them down. I know when something is not coming as a pure idea when I start thinking about how to write it. This is when I leave it as a draft. Sometimes I go back to the draft, but if it still feels like too much effort, I let it go as I know it's a head trip thing.

It's easy to do what comes natural. Just let whatever it is you love express through you.

With love,
Enocia

Related article: Let Yourself Go

Zenith

2006-01-11T13:43:00.000Z

To my beloved muse. You know how I feel about you.

For mountaineers,
Success is achieved
When they reach
The top of the mountain.
But what happens
After descent?

For me,
Success is a
Never-ending
Process of appreciating
Each moment as a
Mountain top experience.

The zenith of life
Is right where I am.

Enocia

An Ocean of Universal Energy

2006-01-11T10:36:00.000Z

"Thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever." (Psalm 23: 5-6)
I believe God/Unlimited Good is all there is. What exactly does this mean?

Last night while I was doing the washing up in a bowl, I decided to leave a baking tin to soak for a while. I filled it with water but the water seeped through as it had tiny holes at the bottom. There was only one thing to do, immerse it in the bowl. So I filled the tin to the brim and let it overflow until there was enough water in the bowl to cover the tin. I suddenly realised that I was witnessing the Truth of Reality - "Unlimited Good/God is all there is" - in action.

In this piece I'm going to use another synonym to describe Unlimited Good - Universal Energy (UE).

The water filling up the tin and overflowing into the bowl is UE; and UE is limitless. UE is formlessness, pure energy. Within this UE is the essence of all there is and the intent to transmute the formless into forms. The baking tin represents the human instrument, a vessel created to receive and express UE. The holes represent the human instrument's willingness to receive and express UE.

In the Bible, Paul writes:

"For in him we live, and move, and have our being; as certain also of your own poets have said, For we are also his offspring." (Acts 17: 28)
Paul is speaking about God as UE. This energy is like an ocean all around us. I am, we are all, swimming in the stuff. And it is the UE that is actually expressing through us. UE is life and it is UE that breathes us. UE is all there is.

In the human experience, we have been conditioned to see ourselves as programmes. You go through various programmes and then you die. The human experience is like a fish swimming in an ocean and oblivious to the ocean's presence. We have unlimited UE all around us but we are oblivious to UE.

How can we live with a constant awareness of UE? We must be born again of the Spirit or UE. And no, being born again is not about going to church or joining some religion; one can be born again without being part of any religion. This is what Jesus has to say about being born again:

"Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God. Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born when he is old? can he enter the second time into his mother's womb, and be born? Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God." (John 3: 3-5)
To be born again is to realise UE is our true heritage. UE is our Parent and we are His offspring. We are one with UE. Real life is UE. There is nothing but UE. In other words, humans are not material beings dependent on the elements to survive; humans are Spirit/UE in manifestation.

"For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure." (Philippians 2: 13)
Now when I say "God is all there is," I'm referring to God as Spirit or Universal Energy. It is God that is appearing as all forms; it is God that is working through all; it is God that is expressing life.

I have my being in an Ocean of Universal Energy.
I am Universal Energy in manifestation.

Enocia

Related article: The Universe is One Big Jelly

Xenophobia

2006-01-10T14:37:00.000Z

It's about time I had a topic that starts with an X so here goes. This poem, if you can call it a poem, is dedicated to my Canadian friends. (wink)

Why do you hate me
For speaking in a foreign language?
I might not speak the Queen's English,
Yet, I'm proud to be Canadian.

Why do you hate me
For looking so gorgeous?
So I have an hour-glass figure;
It's not my fault I'm a doll.

Why do you hate me
For looking so different?
My face may look like a bulldog;
But my dog still loves me.

Why do you hate me
Because I am a letter "X"?
I may appear in very few words;
But at least I exist.

Hahaha!

Just having a laugh!

Enocia

Trusting in Divine Order

2006-01-10T10:58:00.000Z

It never ceases to amaze me how things turn out for good. From a human standpoint events might appear chaotic; but they are always working in divine order. I only have to let things happen and trust in the process.

The other day I went to a bookshop to browse. The floor I was at had CDs and DVDs. My mother had asked me to check out the CD prices for the Irish pop band, West Life. She is a huge fan. As there weren’t any comfortable seats available at the time, I rummaged through the CDs checking out the prices for my mother. Then I went downstairs where I knew a chair was available. After reading for about half an hour I had a thought that seats were now available on the next floor. Sure enough there were two available. I chose the one in the far corner. As I sat down a man beside me said hello.

Last year at a poetry reading at the same bookshop, I heard this man reading his poems. At the end of the reading I told him how much I'd appreciated his poems. We ended up going for a walk and having discussions about spirituality and life in general. I haven't seen him since. The man saying hello was the same man.

I wondered why we were meeting now. As we chatted and he told me about what he's been up to, he reminded me that he is a professional actor. I told him I've been preoccupied lately about acting; I've even written two pieces called Extras and Great Actors Know How to Be. I shared some ideas with him. We ended up going to a local bar where we continued our discussion. My friend said it was funny how I popped up because he'd just had a thought about me. And another thing, my actor friend hails from Ireland.

Last night while I was watching the movie, The Matrix, my mother asked me if I knew that the word "matrix" is an old-fashioned word for the "womb." I told her I did. I asked her if she knew the word "matrix" is in the Bible. Given how loaded with religious symbolisms The Matrix is, I wouldn't be surprised if the script writer didn't take that meaning from the Bible. Mum said she had never come across the word in the Bible. She checked the concordance (the index) but the word wasn't listed. I said it was from Exodus. I tried looking for the word in the Bible but I didn't want to miss out on the movie so I said I would check it out on the Internet the next day. During the commercial break I picked up the Bible. I noticed my mother had inserted a small envelope from Unity in the Bible. On that page my eyes were drawn to the following text:

"All that openeth the matrix is mine; and every firstling among thy cattle, whether ox or sheep, that is male." (Exodus 34: 19)
Mum was amazed. I said maybe God had deliberately inspired her to put that envelope on that page just in case. (smile)

In the King James Version of the Bible there are actually five references to the word "matrix."

Exodus 13: 12
Exodus 13: 15
Exodus 34: 19
Numbers 3: 12
Numbers 18: 15

However, in other versions of the Bible the "matrix" is referred to as "womb."

It's amazing how much Good unfolds in perfect order. One's action might seem quite random from one perspective, but from a big picture perspective, it is all working out in perfect order.

I trust in Divine Order.

With love,
Enocia

Receiving Unlimited Good

2006-01-10T10:18:00.000Z

We thank thee then, O Father,
For all things bright and good,
The seed-time and the harvest,
Our life, our health, our food. [...]
All good gifts around us
Are sent from heaven above,
Then thank the Lord, O thank the Lord
For all his love! Source

Bless the LORD, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless his holy name.
Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits:
Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases;
Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies;
Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle's. (Psalm 103: 1-5)

"Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning." (James 1: 17)
God is Unlimited Good. Unlimited Good is all there is.

Just because God is all there is doesn't mean all that we experience as forms are of God. Man is using all the Good, the Intelligence of God, according to man's freewill. For instance, man can use the Internet to promote peace and love or to promote fear. However man distorts the intent of Good, that intent will always be the same, very good.

In the world one can easily be distracted with the doom and gloom in the news and all around us. We are also made to feel guilty for receiving Good for free. Why should you receive things for free when you haven’t earned them? This is when I focus on the Truth that Unlimited Good is ever present and is freely given. This means all we'll ever need has already been provided. All I have to do is say "Yes" and receive. It is that simple.

I like to see Unlimited Good as liquid Light pouring through me, the vessel. The Source of Good never stops pouring and I never stop receiving.

Every moment I am receiving Good as Light which is made manifest as forms. Even when I am asleep the Light is still pouring away.

I have no qualms about always being on the receiving end. That’s what the human vessel is for: to receive.

I gladly receive all the Good there is.

With love,
Enocia

Related articles: Intelligence, Intent and Being a Willing Instrument; Are the Best Things in Life Free?

Phlegm

2006-01-07T12:50:00.000Z

WARNING. THIS PIECE IS LIKELY TO OFFEND READERS WHO ARE SQUEAMISH!

Every day is a new opportunity to test how I react to experiences. Can I be true to myself no matter what the situation?

Take having a cold, as an example.

I used to hate having phlegm as in "the thick substance that forms in the nose and throat, especially when you have a cold." (Oxford Advanced Learners Dictionary) I couldn't bear throat phlegm, I always wanted to get rid of it. Because I found spitting on the streets vulgar, I would carry wads of tissue paper with me to get rid of accumulated phlegm. There came a point when I stopped thinking of phlegm as bad. I didn't think of it as good either; I just treated it as something that arises now and again. I found my body stopped producing so much phlegm. Even when it did, I swallowed it without a single thought.

Another thing. When I stopped thinking about phlegm, I stopped worrying about catching a cold or being in contact with people who have the sniffles. It was no big deal. I have found that the sniffles come and go. If I need to blow my nose, I do so but without giving it much thought. If phlegm arises, I either swallow it or release it without thought. I don't need to take anything to unblock my nose, I just let it arise and go away of its own accord without thought.

The interesting thing is there is another definition for phlegm which is

"the ability to remain calm in a situation that is difficult or upsetting." Oxford Advanced Learners Dictionary
In other words, not having an emotional reaction to a situation.

It would seem that I've gone from reacting to phlegm to being phlegm regardless of phlegm. Cool!

Enocia

Extras

2006-01-06T12:24:00.000Z

Have you ever noticed in films, dramas and comedies how there are always people milling around in the background? If the drama is set in a pub (or bar) there are people pretending to be drinking (or actually drinking) or socialising in the background. If the drama is set in a hospital, the extras are dressed up as doctors and nurses, or pretending to be patients. These people are called Extras. Extras help create the scene, make it more believable.

Sometimes while watching television with my mother, we play the game of "spotting the extras." This makes for very entertaining viewing. There is a hospital drama we watch called Holby City. My mother and I reckon it's the busiest department ever what with all the extras moving to and fro trying to make it look busy. As if this happens in a real life NHS (National Health Service) hospital!

In the play I call "The Life of Enocia" there are a few people with major roles and minor roles and the rest are extras. The major/minor players in my life are infinitesimal compared to the amount of extras. As I write this, there are over 6 billion people living on Earth. That's a hell of a lot of extras. The wonderful thing is as life unfolds and I take on new roles, many extras end up playing major roles, depending on the script.

As a child, my mum and dad and brothers had major roles in my play while the rest of the world were extras. When my parents separated and we left London to live in Sierra Leone, I was introduced to extras who now took on major roles. I was now living with my uncle and his family; they were now my extended family. Then my mother left us in my uncle's care for six years while she came to London to work. My uncle and his wife were now my parents; and their kids my extended family. My mother was now playing a minor role or so it would seem. In truth, her role was very important as she was paving the way for me and my brothers to join her in London.

At school I met new extras. Some became my friends, antagonists and teachers; while others remained extras.

After secondary school, I took on a new role which involved coming to live with my mother in London. This meant my aunt, uncle and cousins were no longer major players; they were now extras. My school friends and teachers also went back to being extras. My mother now had a major role in my play until I left home. Then my mother and brothers took on minor roles. I was now introduced to new extras who took on major roles in my life as college friends, work friends, work colleagues, housemates, even Internet friends.

Years later I would be playing a new role that would involve my mother reprising her role as major player in my life. We are currently living together and her support has been invaluable. I shall be shortly taking on a new role where my mother will revert to playing a minor role, while I meet new extras who will be major players.

I have found many extras pop up for a moment of need where they play the role of the thing needed and then they're off. At that moment they are major players. Though their roles are short-lived, their impact can last for eternity.

This morning I went to do some grocery shopping for my mother. While I was waiting at the checkout, the woman in front of me, whose shopping was being processed, noticed I had some turkey ham slices that were on a "buy one get one free" offer.

"Excuse me," she said, "do you know if there are some more of those turkey ham slices left? They didn't have them the other day."
"Yes, they've got some left," I said.
"Thank you. I'll get some later."
"Why don't you have mine?" I said. "I can run and get some more."
"Are you sure?"
"No problem, I know where they are anyway."

I ran to the shelf and got some. The woman was very grateful. While she was paying for her grocery, the shop assistant asked her if she had a store card. She said she had but had left it at home. She asked me if I had one and I said yes. She asked the shop assistant to transfer her points to mine, which was very nice of her.

At the bus stop I saw another woman whom I'd noticed at the supermarket. She looked exhausted.

"Are you OK?" I said.
"Yes," she sighed. "I only came out to buy some rice they had on "buy one get one free." Look what I've ended up with." She pointed to the bags around her.
"Maybe you needed these things," I said.
"Yes I do, but it's so heavy to carry."

I asked her where she was going. It turned out we were waiting for the same bus. When our bus arrived I helped her carry her bags on to the bus. During the journey she told me she'd been to Jamaica over Christmas to visit her elderly mother. Her mother has been insisting that she spend Christmas with her. She said it was the first time she'd ever been to Jamaica over Christmas. She said she had a lovely time. When we got to her bus stop, I helped her with her bags and I continued my journey on the same bus.

Up to this morning, I'd never met those two women before; they've been extras. For a few minutes we got to star in each other's lives, which was great.

There are other types of non-human extras that play very important roles by making life easier. They are the equivalent of stage props and they come in two categories: working props and scenery props. Working props include buildings, furniture, cookers, fridges, microwaves, washing machines, dish washers, vacuum cleaners, irons, videos, DVD players, music, radios, televisions, telephones, clocks, cameras, cinemas, media, art, books, Internet, computers, electricity, cars, all types of transportation, money, water, food, drinks, clothes, shoes, hats, bags, cosmetics, makeup, jewellery, etc. Scenery props include forests, flowers, fauna, rivers, ponds, lakes, oceans, mountains, deserts, the sky, the moon, the sun, stars, planets, galaxies, etc.

I mustn’t forget the animal extras who play vital roles as pets, friends who cross my path from time to time, ones who offer themselves as food, and millions of animals I've never met but I know exist.

Finally, there are invisible extras that act as ideas that inspire such as love, peace, joy, truth, freedom, beauty, perfection, harmony and unity.

As I believe God is all there is, it is God that is playing all these roles.

All my love and gratitude to the billions of extras in my play: "The Life of Enocia."

Enocia

Related article: Acting Like a Professional

Priceless!

2006-01-06T12:01:00.000Z

From time to time I hear one-liners that have me in stitches. This one is from my dear mother, which I've been meaning to record for posterity.

Mum: "They are not Christians, they are Catholics!"

Priceless! Hahaha.

Thanks mum. I love you.

Enocia

Let Yourself Go - Part 3

2006-01-05T14:47:00.000Z

Life is Infinite and Unlimited Good.

While we all have different ideas about what makes us happy, we all agree that we all want to experience love in its unlimited ways, be fulfilled and be appreciated. Love, fulfilment and being appreciated are Unlimited Good. I believe Infinite and Unlimited Good seeks expression through all.

Unlimited Good is God.

It is the nature of God to be unlimited; it is the nature of God to be lavish. Unlimited Good can appear in any form to meet a human need; or in unexpected ways whether one is open to receive or not. Check out a fruit tree and see how lavish nature is in providing superabundantly whether there is someone to enjoy its fruits or not.

The ultimate in letting yourself go is to realise that there is nothing but Unlimited Good. Put another way, Unlimited Good is all there is.

With love,
Enocia

Related articles: Let Yourself Go; Let Yourself Go - Part 2; Intelligence, Intent and Being a Willing Instrument

Let Yourself Go - Part 2

2006-01-05T13:49:00.000Z

In the previous post, Let Yourself Go, I discussed how letting myself go is about being at one with whatever aspect of the Infinite is seeking expression.

While I am being an experience or an idea, everything I do or say, every encounter I have with another, in words or deeds, are all part of the experience.

I am a member of several discussion forums. A lot of the time I read without getting involved in any discussions, except when I post something or respond to someone's comments. Most of the time, I am a silent witness. Two days ago I felt compelled to respond to a piece someone had posted. I stated my perspective which was in contrast to the majority. I knew I had been drawn into this conversation for a purpose so I immersed myself in it to see where it would take me. The situation gave me opportunities to reaffirm my trust in God. Through the discussions the articles Grace and What is Truth? emerged.

In other words, what had attracted me to this particular post was not about the actual discussion or topic, but about aspects of the Infinite seeking expression. I let myself go and was the experience.

When I am one with an experience, there is no longer a need to worry about whether I am in peace, in joy or whatever; or about how an experience should unfold. I simply trust that the resources have already been provided. All I have to do is relax and enjoy the ride.

All my love and gratitude to the many players.

Enocia

Let Yourself Go

2006-01-05T11:25:00.001Z

"Empty your mind, be formless. Shapeless, like water. If you put water into a cup, it becomes the cup. You put water into a bottle and it becomes the bottle. You put it in a teapot it becomes the teapot. Now, water can flow or it can crash. Be water my friend." Bruce Lee
In a television advert for a travelling company the slogan goes: "Let Yourself Go."

Yesterday, I met this young lady who said she was Portuguese. She said she was learning English. I asked her how she was finding it. She said she finds it a lot easier to read than to speak as she doesn't know many people she can practise with. She said she only speaks Portuguese with her kids; and her neighbours tend to just say hello and goodbye. I said now that she's living in an environment where she's constantly hearing English around her, she'll be fluent in no time.

I later read an article in Pride about Tim Campbell who won last year's UK television version of The Apprentice, where 14 candidates competed to work with Sir Alan Sugar, Chief Executive of Amstrad. The article was the follow-up to the programme. Tim has not only successfully finished his first year as an apprentice, he's also been offered a permanent contract.

According to the article, Tim has been working as project director for a health and beauty division he helped set up. When asked how he coped with such a different role compared to his previous role as London Transport manager, Tim replied:

"Getting involved in health and beauty was a hard transition, but then all I had to do was fully immerse myself in that environment."
When Tim talks about immersing himself in an environment, I believe he is being one with his new environment; he is being health and beauty.

To be great at what you do, you simply have to be whatever you are experiencing. I wrote recently about how some actors lose themselves in their roles. This is what separates the men from the boys; the mediocre from the great.

Every day I experience a zillion images, sounds and smells with detachment. However, there are times when someone's comments, a dialogue, or something grabs my attention. I see this as an indication that an aspect of the Infinite is seeking expression. I then immerse myself in that situation and see where it takes me. I invariably end up writing about the experience.

For instance, in the last few days I've been walking about 6 miles. I have simply opened up to the walk and let myself be walked. The walks have been wonderful reminders of how when I let even a walk be me, every step is as fresh as the initial step. It's as if I'm being taken on a ride and I am always full of energy.

When I let myself go life is effortless. Ideas come easily. These ideas are different aspects of the Infinite being expressed as forms. Yesterday's idea was Grace.

When I am one with an idea or ideas, I am letting myself go.

Enocia

Related articles: Let Yourself Go - Part 3; Let Yourself Go - Part 2

Grace

2006-01-04T14:14:00.000Z

"God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble." (Psalm 46: 1)
Do you believe in an "eye and for an eye" or a "tooth for a tooth"? Is life for you about revenge, judgment and "tough love"? Do you believe you sow what you reap, good or bad?

I have read many articles from "teachers" of light beings who claim to be here to help humanity to co-create with God. Some talk about a time in the future where all of humanity will unite as one. Others warn humanity of Earth's depleted resources. While some teach techniques about how to clear up the mess we have created before it is too late.

This doesn't ring true for me at all. As I see it, God is all there is and God is Infinite Good and Grace. Where there is only the Infinite Good there is no room for depletion or lack. Where there is Grace there is no room for judgment.

Man is constantly acting according to what he believes to be true at that moment; and his beliefs are always changing. Grace is ever constant Love. The scriptures say God is an "ever present help in trouble." Can you imagine what this means? Can you imagine a God who is always there to pull you out of whatever "mess" you've got yourself into? Can you imagine a God that loves you no matter what? This is Grace. Grace is God in action.

Here in the UK, there is an operation of Grace of sorts. Let's say someone suddenly falls ill. If that is the person's reality, you call an ambulance. The ambulance service will send a paramedic round to help, and he does what he can to help, within his model of reality.

Grace is always present. Grace does not judge on past behaviour. Grace is the love that soothes, restores, protects and heals.

There is a story in the bible of a blind man who asks Jesus for healing. The disciples were quick to ask about sin.

1": And as Jesus passed by, he saw a man which was blind from his birth.

"2": And his disciples asked him, saying, Master, who did sin, this man, or his parents, that he was born blind?

"3": Jesus answered, Neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents: but that the works of God should be made manifest in him. (John 9: 1-3)
This is Grace that is willing to restore regardless.

So for those who believe humans have made a "mess" of the planet and need to co-create with God to fix things up, I would say the God you are co-creating with is not a God of Grace. For Grace doesn't need human help nor would He judge humanity's behaviour. If we really want to help, maybe we should simply evoke Grace.

The Grace of God be with all.

Enocia

What is Truth?

2006-01-04T13:18:00.000Z

On New Year's Day while I was travelling on a bus, as usual, I heard this little boy asking his mum and dad where he was. It was his mother who answered his questions; his dad kept well out of it. Clever daddy!

"Where are we?"
"Fulham Palace Road."
"Where are we?"
"We are still driving on Fulham Palace Road, darling."
"Where are we?"
"We are in Chelsea."
"Where are we?"
"We are on the bus, sweetheart."
"Where are we?"
"We are still in Chelsea, but we'll soon be on the Kings Road where there are lots of shops."
"Where are we?"

His mother soon realised that the boy wanted details, so she called out various streets names as the bus drove by. The boy still kept asking where we were. When we got to the Kings Road, his mother pointed out the various shops.

Then they decided to play a game of "I Spy." I was quite surprised at first because I thought the boy couldn't read. The boy was the first to start.

"I spy with my little eye something beginning with People."

His mother pointed out people walking on the road. It was now her turn.

"I spy with my little eye something beginning with Blue."

The boy pointed out blue Christmas lights on shop windows and on trees.

"Aren't you a clever boy?" his mother said.
"My turn," the boy said. "I spy with my little eye something beginning with Ice Rink."

His mother pointed out a mini rink in a square for children.

They continued playing their game.

Now the boy couldn't read but his mother had played the game according to his level of understanding. If he was familiar with letters their game of "I Spy" would have been different.

As for the question of location, there are various ways one can interpret this. It is true that we were on a bus driving on the Kings Road. If I am going to be really pedantic, I would say we were on a bus on King's Road in the Royal Borough of Kensington and Chelsea in London in the South East in the British Isles in Europe on planet Earth in the Universe...everywhere present.

One could ask the same question about identity. Who am I? Am I my family, ethnicity, gender, sexuality, nationality, humanity, beliefs, thoughts, experiences, Gaia, the Universe, Spirit, Soul, Energy, Mind, God?

What is truth? That depends on what one is open to experience as truth.

With love,

Enocia

The Real Purpose of the Senses

2006-01-03T16:04:00.000Z

In a previous post, I wrote about how I could see the Infinite Intelligence and Intent in its purest state. Infinite Intelligence and Intent is Unlimited Good or God.

I also saw that what we call our physical senses are the receptors of Unlimited Good/God.

The senses are like the branches of a tree stretched out to connect one to Universal Intelligence and Intent that is God.

By all means we can use the senses to explore this reality but we must become aware that the senses are tools to help us connect to and receive Unlimited Good.

Man is not meant to strive; man is an instrument for Unlimited Good.

I see, hear, feel, taste, and smell Unlimited Good.
Unlimited Good is all there is.

Enocia

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Intelligence, Intent and Being a Willing Instrument

2006-01-03T12:41:00.000Z

Yesterday as the bus I was in drove down Oxford Street, the "heart of London shopping", I watched shoppers moving about. Then I saw beyond their movements. I saw the Intelligence that every one taps into that makes people move; it is the same Intelligence that lights the streets and shops; it is the same Intelligence that powers the various transportations; I was observing Infinite Intelligence in action. But what I was "seeing" was not just the Intelligence but the Intent behind the Intelligence. The Intent is how the Intelligence is meant to be used. More about this later.

Years ago, I had a temporary contract at the head office of a popular store in the UK. I was working in the Confectionery department for four days, and the Cakes and Desserts department on Fridays. At the time I believed my body reflected what I ate, so I was on a strict diet which meant no chocolate. I didn't much care for cakes either. The annoying thing was that the Cakes and Desserts department handed us goodie bags of cakes and desserts for us to test them and give feedbacks. Fortunately for me, I was living with a housemate who was more than willing to test the desserts out for me.

While at that contract, I observed how head office decides on prices and sales strategies. Once they have been decided, these are carried out by the different stores. If a member of staff does not agree with the company’s policy, he simply finds himself another job. I was offered a permanent job at the time but I turned it down; I was way too much of a free spirit.

In another contract, I was a project coordinator at an international food company, which shall remain nameless. In this project, company board directors from across the globe met up about once every two weeks at a secret hideout to restructure the company, and decide on redundancies. My role was to arrange these meetings, take care of the directors’ needs, and to design organisational charts that reflected the new vision. As an outsider, I was very detached from the outcome. My contract ended when the press release went out notifying everyone of the impending redundancies.

Here again, I had the opportunity to observe how a company vision is carried out. The board of directors’ made the decisions and their visions were implemented by heads of departments; at least those who still had jobs. Those who did not like the new vision had a choice to either put up or find themselves suitable jobs.

As I watched shoppers and the world in general on my bus journey, I saw that the Intelligence is infinite resources, energy and ideas in a formless state. The Intelligence has always been and will always be present. This Intelligence also comes with the wisdom, or intent, how to use it. The Intelligence and Intent always arise as one. God is the Intelligence and the Intent. God is unlimited Good.

Unlimited Good/God = Infinite Intelligence + Intent.
If there is an intent does this mean God has rules? Not in a way man can understand. God is all there is: Infinite Intelligence and Intent. So let’s say God says "let the earth be filled with vegetation." Vegetation exists in a formless state. This formless state is infinite Intelligence. The intent is what makes the formless vegetation become manifest in perfect order. How this is achieved is not my concern. I only know that Infinite Intelligence and Intent always arise as one. Once God speaks the Word, it is automatically fulfilled because that’s the way it is.

Similarly, a company is the sum total of the services they provide such as goods, staff, technology, and the vision and ideas to provide the service. The directors’ tend to be the ones who decide what the vision is and the rest of the staff implement the vision. The company needs willing instruments, members of staff, to carry out its vision. If you don’t agree with the company's vision, you might be regarded as being against the company and find yourself out of a job.

For me, trusting in God is not about having blind faith it is about understanding who God is, at least my understanding of God, as Infinite Intelligence and Intent. This makes me trust in how things work. That which appears as the idea has already create the circumstances to make it happen. Unlimited Good is simply seeking willing instruments to express all that He is. It is that simple.

Unlimited Good is all there is. Unlimited Good is the sum total of all the resources that we’ll ever need in the formless state and the intent to bring them into manifestation. It is not my responsibility to figure out how this works; I know that the intent is part of the package. My role is to simply receive what is.

I am a willing instrument to express Unlimited Good.

Enocia

Great Actors know How to Be

2006-01-01T19:02:00.000Z

While I was on a bus a few hours ago, I eavesdropped a conversation between a man and a woman. The woman had an American accent. They were discussing different actors and their performances. She thought Johnny Depp was the greatest actor of all time because of the range of roles he has taken on. They also named Russell Crowe as another great actor. I agreed with them; I think Crowe was superb in the film, A Beautiful Mind.

The woman believed actors, like Johnny Depp, can fit into any role; while other actors either have the roles written around their personalities, or they play the role as themselves. John Wayne, she said, was always John Wayne in all his movies. This made me smile. She said Meryl Streep was a versatile actress.

I was dying to join in the conversation so I did so in thought. I thought, "What about Matt Damon, he's another brilliant actor?" Seconds later they discussed Damon. The woman couldn't remember the two films he was in when he played an assassin. In thought, I gave her the names, but she didn't "receive" them.

It was time for me to get off. The woman was getting off at my stop. As we got off I told her how much I had enjoyed their conversation about films. I reminded her that the two Matt Damon films were The Bourne Supremacy and the The Bourne Identity. She thanked me. I also told that I agreed with her that Johnny Depp is an outstanding actor.

"I've seen him being interviewed," she said. "He's like blah, blah, blah, not much there really. But then he gets into character and it's as if he's not there or something."
"Yeah, I think he steps out of the way and lets the character take over."
"Exactly," she said.
"Judy Dench is another brilliant actress," I said.
"Yes, there are some fine British actors around," she said. "You know another actress that's excellent? Cate Blanchett."

I agreed with her. We discussed Blanchett briefly. She said she was pleased I was into films. She was studying script writing at the Film Institute. I told her I had studied media and cultural studies in college. She said she had to catch her bus so we said goodbye.

I believe great actors let the characters express through them. This takes trust and surrender. When an actor surrenders, he is in a state of being, and his work is effortless. Other actors, on the other hand, play the game of becoming their characters, which can make the actors appear as if they are either playing themselves or trying too hard.

This reminds me of the old adage: "Let go and let God." We are so busy trying to become like God instead of letting God be. To let God be, one must totally surrender to God. How?

We all have our ideas of what God is such as God is Love, the All There Is, Spirit, etc. I believe God is beyond definitions so rule number one is one should never limit God. Saying that, I see God as Unlimited Good. By "unlimited" I mean that God can take on any form and any attribute that meets the individual’s needs at the time. To surrender is to simply acknowledge that God is all there is. Thus, for me, Unlimited Good/God is all there is.

Every day is a new page in the eternal script called life. The words in the script are always the same: "God is all there is." God plays the role of the director, actor, writer, producer, all roles on the film set. Every time the director says, "Action!" I remember my lines in the script. The words in the script come to life. I don't try to figure out how God works, I just trust that He does.

I was inspired to get off the bus at a particular part of London and take a long walk through town. There were a few homeless people along the route I took. Instead of thinking about what I should do, or wonder if I should offer change if I had some, I walked peacefully knowing that God, Infinite Good, is right there. It is not my responsibility to worry about how things are or should be, I trust in Unlimited Good working in His own way.

I have realised that for ages I have been trying to become like God instead of letting God be. All I need to do is just let Him work in His own way. And you know something, I am always shown when I am thinking in limiting ways or trying to take over. Some people might call this "correction." God does not make me feel guilty but he simply reminds me of what's in the script: "God is all there is." What other correction is there?

When I surrender to God, I receive ideas or I am put in situations where I receive ideas based on other people’s experiences. Sometimes I have memories of music, films etc that are all part of meeting my needs at that moment. I am also given information about things I need to know. For instance, I only have two of the three keys to the front door. It is never a problem as my mother is usually home before me. At some point yesterday afternoon, I distinctly heard my mother's voice in my head saying she had locked all three in case I was going to arrive early. I didn't pay much attention to the thought. I arrived home and she wasn't there, and it meant I had to go out to kill time and I wasn't a happy bunny. Whether I am at peace or I rant and rage, it doesn't change the truth that "Unlimited Good is all there is." I was a bit split; part of me was in peace. Ha! I had time to write down some ideas about what it means to live without limits.

In order to let God do what He does best, I have to be like Johnny Depp, who seems to lose all sense of self and lets the character express through him.

No more trying to become like God. Unlimited Good/God is all there is

The End.

Enocia

There are No Rules!

2005-12-31T11:23:00.000Z

I have a passion for the field of human potential. I have studied many different models of reality, some of which I have listed as links on my blog under "For the Curious Mind." While I have found these models useful, I consider them to be maps only. I find personal experience more important than following a teaching; I prefer to trust in my own truth. Last night, I had an experience which revealed I was still attached to a particular model.

I was watching a show on television called The Magic of Jesus ( see also Channel 4's Magic Christmas), where two magicians were trying to duplicate the miracles of Jesus, as portrayed in the Bible.

Some of the magicians' "tricks" included turning water into wine, and walking on water. In another trick they got a nurse to scan a woman to confirm she wasn't pregnant. Then the magicians made her look 5 months pregnant. The nurse scanned the woman and the machine revealed that, not only was the woman about 5 months pregnant, she was also "expecting" a boy. The magicians also got five thousand people together in a stadium and multiplied enough loaves to feed all of them.

At first, I wasn't bothered at all. I had no axe to grind as I am not Christian nor do I follow any religion. Then I had a thought that one can do magic tricks but without love, it is all nothing. Hang on a minute, where did that come from? If people want to use magic for entertainment, who is to say it is not love in action? Who am I to impose my idea of love on others? There are no rules as far as love is concerned, or maybe that's my rule.

Over the last year, I have started several blogs for different themes. A blog is a computer programme. The blog has no opinions, makes no rules, passes no judgments, and imposes no limits. It is simply there to serve a function: sharing of information. Whatever I choose to write about makes no difference to the blog.

In the same way, a discussion forum is simply a programme created for the purpose of sharing information. It is the administrator of that forum that makes up rules about what should be discussed. The computer programme doesn't care what is being discussed.

What if the magicians are indeed tapping into the same source of power that the biblical Jesus had? This suggests that the power is impersonal and it is humans that impose rules on how that power should be used. Someone who can tap into a power that can create realities instantly can choose to use it for his own personal use, to entertain, to heal, to enrich lives, or to control others. The Power is impersonal and makes no judgment.

The "powers that be" would like us to dismiss what the magicians are doing as tricks, illusion or whatever because they don't want us finding out that we can all tap into an infinite power to meet our needs. Society, as we know it, would fall apart. So, we have "teachers" in our midst feeding us with misinformation that will distract us from seeking this power. While we are busy debating the many theories and beliefs about life and the universe, the minority who know how to access this power continue to be in control. That's the game "the powers that be" would like us to play.

The TV programme made me re-evaluate what God means for me. God is the nothingness, the void, that is without beliefs, rules, concepts and dogma. The void is infinite power and infinite possibility. This power is freely available to all.

Thank you Channel 4 for an excellent programme.

Enocia

Of Channels

2005-12-30T13:30:00.000Z

"I can so fill you that you become fully God-conscious, a powerhouse for Love and Light to be generated and radiated out into the world. Wonders are awaiting to be revealed through channels." (God Spoke to Me, Eileen Caddy, pp 15-16)

"Allow My cloak of peace and stillness to fall around you and envelop you completely. In quietness and confidence shall be your strength. I can work through you when you are in this state of consciousness no matter what you are doing." (God Spoke to Me, Eileen Caddy, p. 16)

"Let me work My wonders within you. Stand aside and let Me take over. When you let the little self in and allow it to stand in the way, I can do nothing but wait until you, of your own free will, choose to remove it and let Me take over." (God Spoke to Me, Eileen Caddy, p. 26)
Last night as I lay down to sleep, I felt this immense Peace like a cloud hovering at first then it felt like I was been embraced. This Peace is very tangible indeed. While in this Peace I suddenly had a coughing fit. How is this possible? I coughed for a few seconds. The coughing appeared to make me lose sense of the Presence around me. My nose was bunged up and my throat felt sore.

I called out to the Presence. Again, I felt myself being embraced by this Peace and lost all sense of self. I fell asleep.

I had a dream where I saw the brightest light I'd ever seen. It was so bright I couldn't look at it. A voice told me to look at it and that I was that Light. I did and I was instantly at one with the Light.

When I woke up this morning I was completely free of the cold symptoms.

God is the only Power, the only Love, the only Life and the only Wisdom. Yet it sometimes feels as if there is another power. The fact that I had a coughing fit would suggest that there is another power. This is simply not true. There is no Power but God; anything else is a nothing trying to be something.

When you are unaware of God's presence, you are using beliefs to create realities; or to protect from or defend yourself against other beliefs. You are using denial to erase beliefs. I have tried those methods. I have used denied colds and flus as unreal or not of God. I have had cold symptoms and have stayed in silence, and the symptoms have disappeared. As long as you are joined with the collective consciousness of humanity that is filled with conflicting beliefs, there is always something or the other to fight against.

God is beyond all beliefs. The Presence, the Peace that I experience as a "cloud" is Perfection that is unaffected by beliefs. It is unchanging and always present. This Presence is seeking channels to express through. My role is to simply surrender to the Presence and be filled up with His Presence.

God is all there is.

With love,
Enocia

Related articles: The Living God; Making Something Out of Nothing

Forever in a Moment; When Things Fall Apart

2005-12-29T18:39:00.000Z

Earlier today in the library, I came across a book I studied for O'Level Literature when I was in Sierra Leone. The book is called Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe. It is about the impact missionaries had on a Nigerian village and its local customs and traditions. We get to see this transformation through the eyes of the protagonist, Okonkwo.

As far as I could remember, it took a whole year to study that book. At the time, I found it a difficult book to follow; it was filled with symbolisms.

Today I read it in one hour and could not only understand it, I could see the multi-layered meanings imbedded in the text.

What changed? Is the me that I am now that different from who I was at fifteen or sixteen? Do I understand more now because I know more?

I believe the education system suppresses one's innate intelligence that is beyond book knowledge and human understanding. When I was going through the system, it seemed natural for things to take time in order for me to assimilate the information in the book. Besides, we were also studying other books at the same time. And I wasn't exactly passionate about English Literature either; I only studied it because I had to. My favourite books at the time were romantic fiction but they were not on the syllabus, unfortunately.

I was curious to read Things Fall Apart from the space of being. The place of being is a state where "things fall apart"; being free of structures, formlessness.

So I don't think understanding has anything to do with me knowing more now, it's because I am being my real Self that is Intelligence.

It was effortless reading. I loved it.

Understanding is instant; it is only one's perception that makes understanding seem to take forever.

With love,
Enocia

The Game of Receiving

2005-12-28T11:44:00.000Z

The other day I watched an episode of the The Simpsons. Madge is about to give Homer her Christmas present. Homer tells Madge his gift to her is outside. He runs out and thinks out loud that he's forgotten to buy Madge a present. Homer races to the local shops to buy something but the store is completely empty. All the other shops are closed Eventually, Homer returns home.

With her eyes filled with love, Madge hands Homer her present. As Homer opens it she tells him that she knew he was going to forget to buy her a present. So she took it upon herself to buy Homer's gift to her. Homer opens the gift and finds it in more wrapping paper. Homer offers the wrapped gift to Madge and tells her it is from him. Madge opens the gift. Inside is a framed picture of Madge and Homer.

This a complicated way to get a gift, isn't it? Not to Madge. Madge knows that Homer love for her is a precious gift in itself, but she wants to experience the feeling of receiving a Christmas present from her beloved husband. Madge also knows the only way she's going to get a gift from her airhead husband is to get it herself. Madge is therefore playing the game of receiving.

What if God is playing a game of receiving? God already has everything, right? There's nothing that God needs. God can only give. For God to experience receiving He has to create a game of receiving. God thinks up a perfect way: he creates infinite forms, vessels that can receive what He has to give. Man is one such vessel.

The game of receiving works perfectly when man plays his role as receiver. When man realises that there is only God, he realises that he is God-man. God-man can now only give because it is his nature to give. God-man now has difficulty receiving. In order for God-man to receive, he has to play a game of receiving, otherwise he will never be able to experience what it feels like to receive. God-man has to see himself as the vessel that he was created to be, to receive all that God is.

I've noticed that after an hour or so of watching television, my eyes start to hurt. My eyes go blurry and I find it difficult reading words on the screen. I used to just dismiss it and let it go. Yesterday, I had a thought that when I see things, it's as if they are coming from me. Why not pretend I am receiving the experience instead? This is exactly what I did. I imagined the programme I was watching as a beam of light flowing to me and filling me up. My eyes stopped hurting and I was able to enjoy the programme. At the end of the movie I found I could read the credits in small prints, which I couldn't do before.

The human experience is a game that God has devised to give to Himself. We are all vessels created to receive. That's all we need to do - receive.

In truth, God is all there is and God is all that I am being. In order to experience the joy of receiving, I see every experience as Divine Light pouring into me. I see all the desires of my heart as Light pouring into me, filling me and overflowing. And so it is.

Life is a game of receiving. It is good to receive all that God is.

With love,
Enocia

It is Impossible for Anyone to Be Lost!

2005-12-27T16:10:00.000Z

I’m on a bus waiting at a bus stop. I can see my next bus arriving. By the time I arrive at the next bus stop it's too late, I've missed my bus! I'm going to have to wait forever for the next one. This is just great!

OK, I know there is only the One Self present in all. Hey, how come You didn’t synchronise our times perfectly? How come I missed my bus? I know: I'm meant to witness or experience something here and now.

I notice a woman sitting at the bus stop. Other buses arrive but she doesn't get on any of them. More buses arrive, none of them mine. The woman is still sitting there. I wonder if she's waiting for my bus. Then she turns to another passenger and asks what bus goes to a particular route. The passenger tells her she's at the wrong bus stop; she needs to walk to the next stop and catch her bus from there.

As the woman walks away my bus arrives.

As I walk home later I ponder over what I've just witnessed. I've been shown that on the one hand, we can appear lost be it losing one's way, not knowing what to do, or whatever "problems" we have. On the other hand, we are never lost because everywhere we are the One is already there. Thus, though the woman seemed to have been lost, she was never lost. Right where she was was the solution to her "problem." And her apparent "loss" turned out to be excellent material for me. It's a win-win for all.

How can anyone ever be lost when God, the All There Is and solution to every problem, is everywhere present? All we have to do is ask.

There is nothing lost in God.

With love,
Enocia

To Believe is to Agree With

2005-12-27T13:07:00.000Z

While I was still half drowsy on Boxing Day morning, I heard my mother saying there was snow outside. I didn't believe her at first.

"It's true," she said, "it looks about 3 inches thick."

She went on and on until I finally believed her. That's all I need. I'm not into snow; I think snow looks good in movies and on Christmas cards, but not in my reality. So I prayed for the snow to melt ASAP. I decided I wasn't going out in the snow then I went back to sleep. When I finally woke up I looked outside to check the situation and saw there wasn't any snow.

"I thought you said it had been snowing?" I said.
"Did you believe me?" mum burst out laughing. "I was only pulling your leg."
"How could you?" I said. "Now, I've wasted my prayer."

Secretly I was pleased there wasn't any snow.

This morning, mum looked out of the window and said it was snowing again.

"Yeah, yeah, in your imagination," I said.
"It really is snowing."
"Yeah, whatever!"

While she was in the bath I opened the window blinds and looked out to see it was snowing heavily. Oh my, it is really snowing! I told mum it was snowing but she wouldn't believe me.

"I'm not joking, mum, it is snowing heavily."
"I don't believe you!"
"You're like the warped version of the boy who cried wolf," I said. "Now that it's really snowing, you won't believe me."

I opened the bathroom window for her to see the snow but she told me to shut it as it was too cold; she still wouldn't believe me. When she finished having a bath she looked outside and was amazed to see it was really snowing.

"It's all your fault saying it was snowing yesterday," I said.
"But I was only joking."
"Yes, but I so believed you that I prayed the snow would melt," I said. "Now, we are going to witness my prayer in manifestation."

The snow stopped and the sun came out. By the time I went out to run an errand for my mother, it was already melting.

Thoughts and ideas are as real as the forms we experience with our senses. In order for an idea to be made manifest from the invisible to the visible, you have to be in agreement with the invisible idea. In other words, you have to act as if it is true. In this case, I'd so believed my mother's version of reality, I had acted accordingly and prayed for the snow to melt. So it wasn't surprising that the actual event took place in form.

The interesting thing is I pay no attention to weather forecasts because I don't believe them. I tend to wear my heavy coat no matter what they say.

How far can you take beliefs? Let's say you are sick and been to your doctor. After you've tried various medications and had no results, your doctor tells you that he can do nothing else for you. Do you agree with him? If you do, you might as well kiss your life, as you know it now, goodbye. If you don't agree with him, you are open to try other measures.

Do you accept the media's version of reality? Do you agree with their truth? If you do, you conform to their truth. If you don't agree with the media, you are open to other ways of seeing the world.

You can apply this idea to politics, science, religion, nutrition, society, spiritual ideas etc.

I believe Love is all there is and because I agree with that belief, it is a yardstick I use to experience life. (see Making Love)

Be careful what you believe is true, it might happen whether it is a joke or not.

With love,
Enocia

Making Love

2005-12-27T12:30:00.000Z

As a child, I was warned about avoiding strangers and not accepting lifts from strangers. This is true when you believe in the reality of good and evil. But when you realise that Love is all there is, there is nothing to fear.

Earlier today I went to catch my local bus but I saw I'd just missed it. I decided to walk to the next bus stop. As I was standing by the traffic light waiting to cross the road, a man in his car waved at me. He stopped his car, presumably wanting to speak to me, so when I crossed the road I walked over to him. He asked me if I wanted a lift. I said yes and I got into his car.

He asked me if I'd had a nice Christmas and I said yes. He asked me if I was married and where I lived. I told him I lived locally and I wasn't married.
"What about you, are you married?" I said.
"No, I am a playboy who drives around picking up young ladies," he said. Then he burst out laughing. "I'm married; we are all married."
"Are you happily married?"
"Yes," he sighed.

He asked me my name. I said Enocia.
"What's that in proper English?" he smiled.
"Enocia, like in Enoch."

He told me his name was Kenny. We shook hands. He said my hand was cold and rubbed it hard to get it warm.

"Well, isn't this lovely?" I said. "I believe Love is all there is and there you go giving me a lift."
"Do you love me?"
"Yes, I do."
"Can I make love to you then?"
"No, I don't love you in that way."
"I know what you mean," he said laughing, "you love me as a person, right?"
"Yes, I do."
"I love you too," he said.

I asked him to drop me at a bus stop so I could catch my other bus. I thanked him and wished him the very best. He told me he loved me. We blew each other kisses goodbye and I walked away.

Making love is not always about exchanging bodily fluids, it is about sharing a moment of Love with a friend. There are so many opportunities to make love; so many ways Love is appearing. In this case Love was appearing as a "middle-aged white guy" offering me a lift, who also happened to be a wonderful companion.

I love making love, don't you?

Enocia

Related poems: As High as a Kite; Cherished Memories

What is Time?

2005-12-24T13:12:00.000Z

"For a thousand years in thy sight are but as yesterday when it is past, and as a watch in the night." (Psalm 90: 4)
Time is what we believe it is. Here are few examples to illustrate what I mean.

The other day I said to my mother that it's funny how the characters in the animated cartoon, The Simpsons, are always the same. It's been going on since 1989, yet the characters are stuck in the one long year. Bart is permanently at age 8 or 9; Lisa is still in the same class; Maggie is still a baby sucking on her dummy; Madge has still got her blue hair; and Homer is always being stupid Homer. The other characters in Springfield are also unchanging. You could say that the Simpsons' year is as long as the writers continue to produce stories; the producers agree to make the series; and the audience continue to watch them.

In the sci-fi series, Doctor Who, the Doctor travels in his tardis to different times and places in the galaxy. He is accompanied by his assistant, Rose. In one episode called Aliens of London, Rose and the Doctor return to Earth only to discover that they've been gone for a whole year. In Rose's mind they'd only been gone for a few days. Her boyfriend, Mickey, wasn't amused. While Mickey had known where Rose was, he couldn't tell Rose's mother or the police that Rose had gone in a tardis. He had even been suspected of murdering Rose.

I read the following in Science and Health.

"The error of thinking that we are growing old, and the benefits of destroying that illusion, are illustrated in a sketch from the history of an English woman, published in the London medical magazine called The Lancet.

"Disappointed in love in her early years, she became insane and lost all account of time. Believing that she was still living in the same hour which parted her from her lover, taking no note of years, she stood daily before the window watching for her lover's coming. In this mental state she remained young. Having no consciousness of time, she literally grew no older. Some American travellers saw her when she was seventy-four, and supposed her to be a young woman. She had no care-lined face, no wrinkles nor gray hair, but youth sat gently on cheek and brow. Asked to guess her age, those unacquainted with her history conjectured that she must be under twenty." Science and Health, p. 245: 1-15)
Five years ago I went through what I consider to be heartbreak. I was so depressed, I wanted to die. Maybe, I did die. From that moment on, something changed within me. I feel as if I have been stuck in that moment. In my mind, every day is the same one day.

A while back I met an old friend whom I hadn't seen in over ten years. She called my name but then she thought she was mistaken. She said the woman she knew should have aged by now. I called out her name and told her I was the same person.

Time is a belief that many people can share and experience.

In truth, there is only the one moment that lasts forever.

With love,
Enocia

ps: Here's the lyrics to a song I've just heard on the radio, which I happen to love. It is about how one can get stuck in time.

S CLUB 7 LYRICS

"Never Had A Dream Come True"

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (words to say)
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you Source

Love is All There Is

2005-12-24T11:39:00.000Z

On the one hand, I have ideas of what God means for me, while at the same I know that God is beyond ideas. Still, ideas are fun representations of what is.

Here are a few ideas I have of God:

Acceptance
All-in-All
Beauty
Being
Boundless
Causeless
Creativity
Divine Energy
Eternal
Formlessness
Freedom
Friendship
Giving
Grace
Humility
I Am
Imagination
Impersonal
Incommensurable
Infinity
Inspiration
Intelligence
Is
Joy
Life
Light
Limitless
Love
Magic
Majesty
Mind
One
Order
Peace
Perfection
Personal
Power
Presence
Reality
Self
Service
Sharing
Simplicity
Soul
Source
Spirit
Stillness
Supply
Support
Timeless
Truth
Unconditioned
Unfathomable
Unchanging
Wealth
Wholeness
Wisdom
Wonder

Sometimes I find different ideas seeking expression. Insights and experiences on this blog, for instance, are various ideas in manifestation.

But are these ideas different. Is Love different from Freedom? I believe the ideas are one and the same, Love.

Love is all there is and then some.

For me, Light represents Love. The Light I'm referring to has no darkness. So when I imagine this Light, it is another way of acknowledging that all is Love.

God is Love.
Love is all there is.

Enocia

Living in the Moment

2005-12-23T17:17:00.000Z

So my bus arrives at the stop. It's only going part of my journey and it is packed full. I'm going to wait for the next one.

People are pushing one another trying to get on the bus, as if it's the only bus available. I can see another bus approaching; it’s seconds away, and it's going where I want to go. Yet people are too busy fighting to get on the packed bus.

I'm left standing with another passenger. He points out to me that another bus is right behind. "It looks empty too," he says.

"I know," I say. "I can't believe those passengers couldn't see the bus behind."

The bus arrives and I find myself a seat.

If that's what it's like living in the moment, I'd rather pass, thank you.

With love,
Enocia

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A Christmas Message - Cold Turkey

2005-12-23T11:36:00.000Z

"And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we beheld his glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth." (John 1: 14)
In the UK it is traditional for people to exchange gifts, and to stuff yourself silly with turkey and stuff on Christmas Day. (I prefer chicken myself). There is usually left-over turkey that you can have as turkey salad, turkey sandwich, turkey pies, turkey surprise or treat your pets to turkey.

Christmas Day is also the day Christians celebrate the birth of Christ. While I am not Christian I still believe in the Christ idea, which I consider to be an idea of God in manifestation. What do I mean by "idea"? An idea is an impression or image I have of infinite intelligence, perfection, love and power. I call this idea God or The One. I know this is an idea only and that God is beyond ideas and concepts, but it is a workable idea that gives my life meaning.

I believe that once you have the idea of perfection in mind you have to live as the idea, or let the idea live as you. How? By going cold turkey. What do I mean by this?

When a drug addict, for instance, stops taking drugs without replacing his addiction with another, he is going cold turkey. The idea is the drug addict is surrendering to the state of "no drugs." Similarly, if I am going to let the idea of perfection come to life, I have to let go of all addictions and surrender to my idea of God. What do I mean by addictions? People tend to think one can get addicted to drugs, cigarettes, foods, and alcohol. I am referring to beliefs that make me identify myself as flesh and blood human. I let go of my addiction to human beliefs and surrender to the idea that God is all there is.

Another reason why I believe going cold turkey is very important is because it is an opportunity to trust in what I believe to be true: that the idea of a thing is the thing itself. Let's say I have an idea that "I am Spirit and Spirit cannot be sick." The idea exists and is made manifest of its own accord. But when I try to figure out how this idea works in a human way, I am not trusting in the idea. Put another way, I am trusting in the idea of "trying to figure things out in a human way" and this idea is made manifest in form.

I remember when I had the flu and I went cold turkey. Because I was practising energy healing, I had already stopped taking tablets. This time, I was inspired to do nothing; just let perfection be made manifest. I could feel myself split in two: there was the me that was in complete bliss; and there was another part of me that was going crazy. I was dying to apply the many healing techniques I had collected over the years. I surrendered to the idea of perfection and I was healed.

Once I knew I could go cold turkey with the flu, I was able to go cold turkey next time I was sick, even when I had a migraine. Eventually, I learned not to react to an experience. Even last night I woke up with a sore throat and blocked nose. I went back to sleep. I woke up again and it had completely cleared up.

I have found that it is easy to have an idea but it takes a lot of practice for that idea to be "made flesh." For instance, I stopped wearing a watch over two years ago; but I had a watch in my bag just in case. The easiest part was taking off the watch, but it took me months to break the habit of looking at my wrist. When the battery ran out, I decided not to replace it. This was when I got to test the idea of the One as omniscience. If I needed to be at a place at a certain time, I would put out the intent and I always get there on time. Besides, in London there are clocks everywhere so it's no big deal.

I could write a list as long as my arm about how I've gone cold turkey in various aspects of my life, but I'm not going to. It is Christmas, the season to be jolly.

Let me reiterate that ideas of God are simply that - ideas. I believe that for an idea to be made manifest, I have to go cold turkey. Cold turkey is not to everyone's taste unfortunately; excuse the pun. (grin).

Here's a wonderful idea from Dorothy Rieke which is worth putting to the test:

"Because God is all there is, there is absolutely nothing to be concerned about."Wonderful Things are Happening
All the very best.

With love,
Enocia

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Yoo Hoo! Is Anybody Home?

2005-12-22T15:48:00.000Z

Someone is ringing your door bell. You can choose to answer the door or ignore it.

The one ringing the bell might interpret your lack of response as no one at home. If he's a Jehovah's Witness, he might think he's being deliberately ignored. Hehehe. Either way, there is no entry for him.

Each of us has a door or consciousness. One could regard all experiences such as thoughts, emotions, behaviour as seeking some kind of attention.

Who gets to decide what is let in or not?

Source, Divine Love, the All There Is lets in what is appropriate for the individual consciousness. The visitor can always knock on another door/consciousness that is most receptive or appropriate.

"Knock, knock!"
"Who’s there?"
"You."
"You, who?"
"Yoo hoo! Can I come in?"
"Sorry, I’m not available for you right now. You could always try next door."

"Knock, knock!"
"Who's there?"
"Doctor."
"Doctor Who?"
"New series starting very soon."

"Knock, knock!"
"Oh, give it a rest!"

Smiles.

Enocia

The Personal and Impersonal Nature of God

2005-12-22T15:08:00.000Z

I now live by the underlying principle: "God is all there is." This means in every moment there is nothing but the One that is Infinite Love, Intelligence, and Perfection.

As the One Intelligence expressing in all, God is impersonal. Thus, God wants everyone to enjoy all goodness and happiness. On the other hand, God is also very personal in that He will only express what each of us prefers. For instance, the Intelligence knows that I don't much care for avocados so there is no point manifesting them in my reality. I have nothing personal against avocados, it's just my preference; though I don't mind them as guacamole.

I believe it is the same One who has given us, and continues to give us, our personal preferences or "quirks", as my friend calls them, which makes each of us unique. Therefore, the One appears to each of us as different types of thoughts in response to our various needs.

Last night when I was walking home, it started to rain. I have a preference to walk in dry weather but I couldn't be bothered to open my umbrella. I thought to myself: "God is all there is; God is dry weather." The rain stopped and it was dry all the way home.

This morning I was off to the library. Their computers have been down for several days so I wondered whether I should go into town to an Internet shop. As I approached the bus stop I saw the bus was just leaving. The bus driver turned the bus round. Instead of driving away he stood there waiting then he opened the doors for me to get on. I interpreted this as the Impersonal Intelligence answering my question, so I took the bus into town.

My next bus was packed full with people, presumably, heading off to do their Christmas shopping. A man was standing above me and blasting music on his mobile phone. As much as I enjoy music, sometimes I would rather not hear loud music so close; that's what head phones are for. The man was oblivious and dancing and singing away. I thought again that "God is All There Is." I felt profound peace where I had no thoughts. It no longer mattered whether there was music or silence. After a while the man put on his head phones and continued to sway to his music.

While God is all there is, He expresses through each of us as personal. If that wasn't the case we would all act in identical ways.

With love,
Enocia

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After You!

2005-12-22T12:41:00.001Z

So a bus arrives at the stop. There are three of us waiting to get on. I motion for the woman on my left to get on before me, but she motions me to get on. I beckon the guy on my right to get on but he beckons me to get on before him. For crying out loud someone has to make the first move. So I get on the bus.

I wonder what our interaction was like from the driver's perspective.

Passenger 1: "After you."

Passenger 2: "No, no, after you."

Passenger 1: "I insist, after you."

Passenger 1 to passenger 3: "After you."

Passenger 3: "No, after you."

Driver drumming his fingers impatiently thinks to himself: "Is anyone going to get on this effing bus or what?"

Hahaha.

Enocia

The Living God

2005-12-21T13:36:00.000Z

For quite a while now I have been straddling two realities: there is the reality where I am observing the world in silence. I find that I cannot judge when I have no thoughts. As for the second, the best way to describe it is through a couple of experiences.

The other day I was in bookshop and I had a thought that "God is all there is," and bam, I lost all sense of my body; I didn't know where the body started or where the books on the shelves ended. I felt huge and soft at the same time. It was like I was everywhere.

Last night I had difficulty getting to sleep. I could feel aches and pains all over. I thought "God is all there is" and again, I lost all sense of myself as having a body. I already know that I am Spirit but this is different. I felt, what I can only describe as, a "cloud" descend on me; or it could have been I was raised into the "cloud." I call it a "cloud" because it feels very tangible, a presence that I consider to be the Living God. I felt like I was being embraced in this "cloud" and was ever so blissful.

While I feel peace, blissful even, in silence, this peace is far more superior. This peace is alive. Paul describes this peace as "the peace of God, which passeth all understanding." (Philippians 4: 7).

I didn't need to sleep. I just lay there enjoying the "cloud's" embrace.

And another thing, though I felt myself at one with the Presence, I was able to think without losing any awareness of being at one with the Presence.

For me, the Living God proves that none of my spiritual practices and understanding make one iota of difference; I can be caught in the "cloud" while I am in silence or thinking to my heart's content. All I have to do is acknowledge Its Presence. It only takes a minute or two and the Presence takes over.

When you can feel the Living God as a tangible presence everywhere, there is no need to worry about a thing.

I will share more of my experiences of the "cloud" as they unfold.

With love,
Enocia

Expectations

2005-12-20T15:59:00.000Z

Yesterday, I received an email from a friend who reads my blog in response to a recent post where I have listed requirements I expect my my life partner to have. He wrote:

"But then I couldn't understand why ur life partner should be lot of fun, shld always have a lovely smile and should be atleast 6''feet tall. I had a bigger list than urs, but then now I feel, its possible to love anybody in any form that they are in. Take any man, let him be tall or short, let him be intelligent or let him be dull headed, let him be quick and witty or let him be slow and stupid, let him be superstitious or let him be questioning every little thing in life. If for a moment, we can drop our judgements and opinions, our likes and dislikes, suddenly we will start feeling that, we don;t exist anymore. It would become so simple to become the other, take their shape of mind, start liking all that they like, start disliking all that they dislike, we would start seeing the world in their view point. The moment this happens, its so easy to be in love with that person. So I think its easy to love anybody and its easy to live with anybody under the same roof for any number of years."
My response was:

"I note your comments about my ideal partner and I appreciate where you're coming from. You are saying I'm putting conditions on my partner. I would also say you're putting conditions on what kind of man I should want in my life. As friends people can be anything, but as my partner, I have a preference. Similarly, I can eat all types of food with no thought of what's in them I have foods I prefer to eat. So I prefer a man that is tall, fun, likes to play and realises that life is a game. I prefer men I feel attraction for and that's the way it is. It's my choice and I'm being true to myself. Of course, I expect him to be Real i.e. he should know that he is Spirit Man and not fall under the illusion of sickness, aging and death.

"I don't have to search for him I just know he does exist. If he didn't I wouldn't have had the thought in the first place. If you can think it, it exists."
I wonder what would happen if I wrote a list of foods I would love to experience or the types of clothes I would love to wear. I doubt if anyone would bat an eyelid. But when it comes to being very specific about relationships there is a judgment. I shouldn't have a choice because I am Divine Love who loves all equally, therefore, I shouldn't have special relationships. Says who? Who makes up the rules about how I should be?

That's the problem with expectations of spirituality. One can build up an idea of what it means to be spiritual or how one should be.

I want to make it clear right now that while I acknowledge there is only One in all, I am also very much aware that I am here to experience life as me. An intimate relationship is one way of expressing who I am, with a man that meets with my personal tastes; and that includes being tall, slim, clean-shaven and attractive. And yes, I prefer having relationships with men. I also expect my partner to be real; for my definition of "real" see Yo-Yos and Drama Queens.

I have written elsewhere that my personal experiences are based on my understanding of the One. I do not expect anyone to take my experiences as gospel truth. Let me reiterate that I am not a spiritual teacher or guru. If readers find my experiences useful, that's good; but we must all find out what works for ourselves.

Earlier today I received an email from another friend who also reads my blog. He wrote:

"When did you got enlightenment I mean date of the enlightenment!"
My response to him was:

"I don't do dates, there is no time.

"I have always been Self; as are you, always Self."
What is enlightenment anyway? I get insights all the time about ways of being and I experience and write about them. I have an idea of what God/Self means for me. All I know is that God is everywhere present yesterday, today, tomorrow and forever; and I live with this belief. I have no idea whether this constitutes enlightenment, not do I care about enlightenment.

I want to thank both of my friends for giving me this opportunity to be true to myself.

All the very best to all.

With love,
Enocia

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Song of The Day

2005-12-20T14:30:00.000Z

The song, He Ain't Heavy, He's My Brother by the Hollies has just popped into my head. I'll post the lyrics below.

For me, this song represents the One Self that we all share.

Lots of love,
Enocia

HE AIN'T HEAVY HE'S MY BROTHER

The road is long
with a many a winding turns
that leads us to who knows where,
who knows where.
But I'm strong,
strong enough to carry him.
He ain't heavy, he's my brother.

So on we go.
His welfare is of my concern.
No burden is he to bear,
we'll get there.
For I know
he would not encumber me.
He ain't heavy, he's my brother.

If I'm laden at all,
I'm laden with sadness
that everyone's heart
isn't filled with the gladness
of love for one another.

It's a long, long road
from which there is no return.
While we're on the way to there,
why not share?
And the load
doesn't weigh me down at all.
He ain't heavy, he's my brother.

He's my brother.
He ain't heavy, he's my brother...

Vest

2005-12-20T13:46:00.000Z

V is for a vest
You might wear
When it gets chilly;
Or just for the hell of it.
I don't wear vests myself;
But I know a vest
Is one word that starts
With the letter V.

Hope no one is vexed by this nonsense verse.

Enocia

Yo-Yos and Drama Queens

2005-12-20T12:49:00.000Z

"Lo, this only have I found, that God hath made man upright; but they have sought out many inventions." (Ecclesiastes 7: 29)
"Get your facts first, then you can distort them as you please." Mark Twain
Don't people love to create dramas in their lives? Instead of focusing on what is real, they prefer to focus on drama.

OK, what is real?

I believe we all want to feel appreciated and accepted for who we are; we all want to be fulfilled in our lives; we all want to be happy. What we are all seeking is to experience love by giving and receiving love in the many forms love takes. For me, being real is being the real Me that is Love eternal.

The Real Me is what I call Self. We all share this one Self. This means that whenever I think of "myself", it is the one Self I speak of.

I am the one Self now, but when I don't see myself for who I am, when I identify myself as an ego, I'm bound to see the world as being against me. I'm bound to live life as a yo-yo, one minute I'm happy, the next I'm miserable. And that will be the life experiences I will attract.

How can the world be against me when I share the same Self with the world?

I've been given freewill to choose between being a drama queen or being real.

The choice is easy: all is One; life is constant bliss and joy.

I am not a yo-yo, I am Self.

Just keeping it Real,
Enocia

DNA

2005-12-19T17:41:00.000Z

It is said that our DNAs contain our genetic and biological heritage.

I believe our DNAs contain a programme called Greatness.

We are all equally great and destined for greatness for all time.

DNA = Do Not Adjust; Do Not Alter.

Do not change who you are; just accept your gift of Greatness.

We are all Great.

With love,

The Great Enocia

Umbrellas

2005-12-19T17:22:00.000Z

I haven't got a topic that starts with the letter U so I thought I'd create one.

Umbrellas

Umbrellas are useful objects.
They come in many colours,
And different shapes and sizes.
You can hide behind them,
Protect yourself under them
Or even leave them behind.

Umbrellas are useful objects,
They come in very handy
When you wish to write
About a topic that
Starts with the letter U.

I know you're thinking
This poem
Is a tad shady.
You know something,
U r probably right.

Enocia

Staying Awake to My Real Self

2005-12-19T14:05:00.000Z

"For, behold, I create new heavens and a new earth: and the former shall not be remembered, nor come into mind." (Isaiah 65: 17)
I believe "seeing is believing" in reverse; I know, see and feel that my real self is Spirit where all things are possible. I know that I, as Spirit, am always the same. I know that I, as Spirit, am immortal. I know that I, as Spirit, am perfection. I know that I, as Spirit, am infinity.

How come this Self is not fully manifested?

Actually, Spirit is fully manifested here and now; Spirit occupies all space, therefore Spirit is all there is. This means that what I consider to be human is actually Spirit in flesh. There is only the Self/Spirit. I am either Spirit or I am dreaming I am a personality.

What do you mean by "dreaming I am a personality"?

When I identify myself as a form or a label, I am seeing myself as a personality, a part that is separated from the whole.

How do you stop dreaming?

By realising that I am Spirit; and Spirit is All There Is.

For instance I know that Spirit Man is Love and Love never hurts. When I am dreaming I am a personality, I may act out of fear. The moment I wake up to who I am, I don't go round feeling guilty. Why should I feel guilty over a dream? I know that my real Self is always innocent and pure; She is Love.

In the same respect, only when I am dreaming myself as a personality that is separate from the whole can I see myself, or another, as an antagonist, oppressor, perpetrator or victim. But when I wake up to myself as Self, where there is only the One, there is no duality.

Is waking up to your real Self a process?

No, waking up to my real identity happens in an instant. However, as I've got into the habit of identifying myself as a personality, I've formed the habit of being asleep. Staying awake to my real Self might take the following pattern:

sleep, wake up, sleep, wake up, stay awake, stay awake, sleep, wake up, stay awake, stay awake, stay awake, doze, wake up, doze, stay awake, stay awake, stay awake, drowsy, stay awake, stay awake...until you have developed the habit where you are always awake.

Do I get to keep my memories when I wake up to who I am or are they all wiped out?

Spirit is always innocent and has never suffered any pain, injury or lack. I know that Spirit has been the only One having my experiences, therefore, I have never hurt anyone nor has anyone hurt me. Because I know that Spirit is the only presence, all memories not in accordance with Spirit have either been erased as if they never happened or have been transmuted into Spirit. I get to keep those memories that are of Spirit.

What if I am not experiencing the truth of Spirit in form?

There is only Spirit in form. If I am not experiencing this truth, I am simply dreaming I am not experiencing the truth of Spirit in form.

I am awake.

Enocia

Soul Mates

2005-12-18T13:14:00.000Z

Last night I watched the film, Good Will Hunting on television. I have seen it before but I thought it would be fun to watch it again.

Will Hunting, played by Matt Damon, is a janitor at MIT university, but secretly he is a mathematical genius. The film is about how Will copes with his talent, and his relationships with his family, friends, girl friend and psychotherapist.

There were two scenes that caught my attention, which I want to write about here. In one scene, Will is having a row with his girlfriend, Skylar, whom he met at MIT. Will can't cope with Skylar's love. His mentality is: how can anyone love me when I've been through hell?

WILL
You don't want to hear that I got cigarettes put out on me when I was a little kid. That this isn't surgery.

Will lifts his shirt, revealing a six inch SCAR on his torso.

WILL (cont'd)
You don't want to hear that. Don't tell me you want to hear that shit!!

SKYLAR
Yes I do. Did you ever think that maybe I could help you? That maybe that's the point, that we're a team?

WILL
What, you want to come in here and save me? Is that what you want to do? Do I have a sign that says "save me" on my back?

SKYLAR
I don't want to "save" you. I just want to be with you. I love you. I love you!

Will, full of self-loathing, raises his hand to strike her.

WILL
Don't bullshit me! Don't fuckin' bullshit me!

SKYLAR
(standing up to him)
You know what I want to hear? I want to hear that you don't love me. If you tell me that, then I'll leave you alone. I won't ask any questions and I won't be in your life.

A beat. Will looks Skylar dead in the eye. Lowers his hand.

WILL
I don't love you. Good Will Hunting

In another scene, Will is having a discussion with his therapist, Sean, played by Robin Williams.

SEAN
Do you have a soul-mate?

WILL
Define that.

SEAN
Someone who challenges you in every way. Who takes you places, opens things up for you. A soul-mate.

WILL
Yeah.

Sean waits.

WILL (cont'd)
Shakespeare, Neitzche, Frost, O'Connor, Chaucer, Pope, Kant--

SEAN
They're all dead.

WILL
Not to me, they're not.

SEAN
But you can't give back to them, Will.

WILL
Not without a heater and some serious smelling salts, no...

SEAN
That's what I'm saying, Will. You'll never have that kind of relationship in a world where you're afraid to take the first step because all you're seeing are the negative things that might happen ten miles down the road. Good Will Hunting

Is there such a thing as a soul-mate? And does a soul-mate challenge you?

I believe in only one Soul, that which is the creative intelligence in all that is always expressing through all. Each of us is the Soul. The Soul doesn't challenge anyone? There is nothing to challenge the Soul either. Why would the Soul be challenged when it is invulnerable? Soul has everything He needs to express life. Challenges are at the human personality level.

One living at the human personality level finds the Soul to be a challenge because the personality doesn't understand the Soul's nature of giving without conditions or expectations. The personality cannot accept that he can be loved just because...and will put obstacles in the way to prevent himself receiving that love. Like Will, the personality has to remind you of what an awful person he is and that he doesn't deserve love. The Soul doesn't do history and behaviour, He loves because it is His nature to love.

Like Will, I was in therapy briefly to deal with sexual abuse. One day I woke up to the truth that I was neither a victim nor a survivor. At that moment I stopped therapy. Realising you don't need therapy is one thing, but what if you have to face the "perpetrator" again? I had been avoiding speaking to my cousin whom I thought had hurt me for years. One day he telephoned and I had a long conversation with him. I realised I felt nothing but love for him.

Another time, my mother's friend came to visit. This woman's son had also "abused" me as a child. At that time I used to practise energy healing. The woman asked me for healing. At first I felt reluctance, then I pushed through the reluctance and I gave the woman healing. Did I feel as if I was healing myself? No, actually I felt nothing but love for the woman.

In both examples I realised that I was expressing myself as Soul. I felt no hurt or pain because Soul has never gone through hurt, pain or suffering. Soul is invulnerable. Soul can only love. Healing energy is just another way of expressing love.

Suffering occurs only at the personality level, NEVER at the Soul. Soul was never born. Soul has never been hurt. Soul has never died. Soul does not go through reincarnations.

The personality believes life is a struggle and you have to learn lessons every step of the way. The Soul already is everything, why would She need to learn anything?
The personality believes that life is a process of expansion through life experiences. The Soul is already perfect and whole and needs nothing to make it more perfect. The Soul is not a result of experiences; He is despite one's experiences.

In truth, there is no personality; there is only the Soul. The personality is simply a shift in perspective. When you are coming from a place of love, giving without expectations, and pure infinite being, you are being the Soul. When you see the world as competitive, a struggle, fearful, or you see yourself as this or that, you are acting out; you are a personality.

If the Soul was never born, how come we appear to go through human birth? At the level of the senses, of course we do go through birth, but what is being born is the Soul being expressed through a human form, just like the one Soul is expressed through a tree, a work of art, a building, new planets etc. In this respect there is always a new birth and ending on the one hand. On the other hand, the Soul is always the same Soul expressing through infinite ideas.

Back to the subject in hand. What is a soul-mate? The purpose of life is to realise that there is only the Soul and to live as Soul. Soul's nature is self-expression, not to add to Self, but to express Self. A soul-mate is, therefore, any opportunity that enables the Soul to express or be self. This means that soul-mates come in all shapes and sizes: humanoids, animals, nature, buildings, art, planets, stars, universes, anything and everything.

Let's say all 6 billion people here on earth were living as the Soul, would that make them all act the same? The One Soul is blissful in nature on the one hand; on the other hand, the one Soul has unlimited ways of expression. This is what makes us all unique.

Soul knows that "the only way is up." In other words, you can't avoid being the Soul forever. If not now, there will always be another now. The Soul never imposes His idea of being on another. If one is not open to be a soul mate, Soul accepts the situation as it is. In the film, Skylar withdraws from Will's life though she continues to love him from afar. After Will has sorted his head out, he goes in search of Skylar.

As I see it, we all have infinite soul mates. There are some soul mates we associate with on a daily basis and others we don't. My closest soul mates right now are my mother, the Internet, my blogs, buses and people I meet on my travels.

All my love to all my soul mates.

Enocia

Two Little Boys

2005-12-17T14:09:00.000Z

While I was browsing at the Internet cafe, I looked up and saw that I had chosen terminal number 69. Then a song by Rolf Harris called "Two Little Boys" popped in my head.

I note the song was recorded in 1969. How bizzarre! Maybe, there is a message the Universe wants me to hear.

Anyway, following is some background information of the song and the lyrics.

With love,
Enocia

Two Little Boys

In 1969, during a tour of Arnhem Land with his wife and daughter, Rolf briefly stayed with a man called Ted Egan. Ted sung him this song, which Rolf recorded on tape. When he got back to England and talked his television producer into using the song, Rolf discovered he had lost the tape! Rolf rang Ted, twelve thousand miles away in Canberra, and got him to sing the song over the phone. Alan Braden arranged the song for the TV show, and the audience reaction was so marvellous that Rolf decided to record it. This song was top of the hit parade for seven weeks over Christmas 1969.

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(Morse - Madden arr. Braden) H. Darewski Music / EMI / Redwood Music (P) 1969
Cond. Alan Braden - Produced by Mickey Clarke

Two little boys had two little toys
Each had a wooden horse
Gaily they played each summer's day
Warriors both of course
One little chap then had a mishap
Broke off his horse's head
Wept for his toy then cried with joy
As his young playmate said

Did you think I would leave you crying
When there's room on my horse for two
Climb up here Jack and don't be crying
I can go just as fast with two
When we grow up we'll both be soldiers
And our horses will not be toys
And I wonder if we'll remember
When we were two little boys

Long years had passed, war came so fast
Bravely they marched away
Cannon roared loud, and in the mad crowd
Wounded and dying lay
Up goes a shout, a horse dashes out
Out from the ranks so blue
Gallops away to where Joe lay
Then came a voice he knew

Did you think I would leave you dying
When there's room on my horse for two
Climb up here Joe, we'll soon be flying
I can go just as fast with two
Did you say Joe I'm all a-tremble
Perhaps it's the battle's noise
But I think it's that I remember
When we were two little boys

Do you think I would leave you dying
There's room on my horse for two
Climb up here Joe, we'll soon by flying
Back to the ranks so blue
Can you feel Joe I'm all a tremble
Perhaps it's the battle's noise
But I think it's that I remember
When we were two little boys Two Little Boys

Nothing But the Best

2005-12-17T12:47:00.000Z

I met these women on the bus this morning who were very excited to be exploring London. They were going shopping in Covent Garden and then going to see the play, Billy Elliot, later this evening. They asked how to get to Covent Garden and a fellow passenger and I gave advice as to which stop to get off at.

I asked one lady where they were from and she said Hull. I told her I knew the bridge at Hull. I said I used to have a boyfriend who lived in Brigg, in North Lincolnshire.

"Yes, Brigg is only 15 minutes by car from where I live," she said. "I went to Brigg last week."

We talked briefly about that part of the UK and soon it was time to get off. We wished the ladies a happy visit and fun trip to the theatre.

I want everyone to have the best life has to offer, whether it's in love, career, travel, and life in general. Everyone deserves to be happy and have a life filled with joy.

When I want the best for others I am recognising that life is infinite abundance; there is a superabundance of love for everyone to enjoy.

Wishing you all nothing but the best.

With love,
Enocia

Hahaha!

2005-12-16T14:34:00.000Z

My friend sent me the following joke by email. Love it.

Thanks, L.

EJ ;-)

After a long night of making love, he notices a photo of another man on her nightstand by the bed. He begins to worry.

"Is this your husband?" he nervously asks.

"No, silly," she replies, snuggling up to him.

"Your boyfriend, then?" he continues.

"No, not at all," she says, nibbling away at his ear.

"Is it your dad or your brother?" he inquires, hoping to be reassured

"No, no, no!!!" she answers.

"Well, who in the hell is he, then?" he demands.

"That's me before the surgery."

Inner Silence

2005-12-16T14:19:00.000Z

My friend, Ben, produced the following fractal which represents Inner Silence. I see it as the Silence being in stillness and in forms.

Enjoy.

Love,
Enocia

Related poem: Inner Silence

Are You Normal?

2005-12-16T13:36:00.000Z

My earliest memory is seeing myself sitting on a potty looking down a flight of stairs. Good scenery. I don't remember much about when I was a baby. I can't imagine I spent time pondering on life and the universe. I don't think I thought about anything otherwise I would have remembered.

Then I started thinking or was conditioned into the belief that thinking is the done thing. I became a formative thinker though I tried not to clog up my system; not that I am capable of clogging up my brain as I don't know much.

I've gone as far as I can go on thinking; now I don't think much. In fact, I don't think. When I speak, I don't think about what I am going to say, words just come out of the silence. I don't have to think about what I write, ideas just pop out; and the ideas are always complete. For instance I can look at something and know exactly why I am looking at the thing and how that thought-form relates to who I am. Otherwise, I tend to stay in silence.

Now here's the thing. I believe Man is an idea of Perfection but it is our thoughts that make us dense; then we get stuck in the world of forms. Put another way, thoughts are what keeps me in form; they make me heavy and earthy. When I am not thinking, I become light, like the idea I inherently am. I know that I'm going to get lighter and lighter and will eventually become invisible to the senses, as ideas are.

Last night at a bus stop, this woman came up to me and prodded my back. "Are you normal?" she said. She seemed very angry. I dived into the waiting bus, even though it wasn't the one I wanted.

Hmmm! I wonder if the woman was seeing right through me? Maybe, she thought I was a walking dead. Hehehe. Isn't that ironic?

Well, I am having fun being in the silence.

And just for the record, I am very normal; whatever that is.

Love always,
Enocia

Manifesting by the Balloon Technique

2005-12-16T13:14:00.001Z

In last night's dream someone showed me how to manifest my intentions. I was told to see all intentions and desires as existing as balloons in the sky. All I had to do was reach out and pull the string of the balloon I wish to manifest in form.

So I decided to try it out. I thought of chocolate and imagined myself pulling a balloon towards me. I had no thought of how I would receive the chocolate.

I found myself in a shop with lots of chocolates in front of me. The shopkeeper instructed a boy working with him to give me a bar of chocolate for free. The first chocolate had a hole in the wrapper so I refused it. The next chocolate also had a hole and I refused it. Then the shopkeeper told the boy to let me choose one. The one I picked was perfect and tasted yummy.

Well, I'm going to try this balloon technique. If you do try it and get results, please let me know.

With love,
Enocia

My Life Partner

2005-12-16T12:51:00.000Z

Last night I discussed my ideal life partner with my mother. She said she couldn't imagine me going out with a "worldly" man in his thirties because he'll look way too old for me. I agreed with my mother.

I expect my life partner to meet the following requirements.

He is a lot of fun.
He is eternal youth.
He has a cracking sense of humour.
He loves to play.
He loves who he is.
He is full of life.
He has a lovely smile.
He is real.

Naturally, I have to find him physically attractive. He is clean-shaven and at least 6' tall. I love tall men. (smile)

I know he does exist.

Can't wait to meet you in person.

All my love,
Enocia

New Year's Resolution and Perfection

2005-12-16T11:47:00.000Z

My mother told me today that her new year's resolution is to lose weight. She said she has a specific target and with God's help she intends to be that weight. I suggested that instead of planning to go on another diet, she could pray to manifest her perfect body that already exists in Mind now. It's her choice of course.

I don't believe in diets; to go on a diet or to watch what you eat is based on the belief that one needs to add or take away from what you are. You are worried about additives or preservatives in food. You're counting calories. You are doing exercises to achieve your ideal physique. These are all smokescreens; beliefs that have no foundation in truth.

We've got so used to the counterfeit image of man as apposed to real Man. Real Man does not age; real Man does not have to worry about what He eats or drinks; real Man does not have to worry about getting sick or dying; real Man is Perfection. Real Man is who I am and She represents eternal youth, beauty, perfection and abundant life. And nothing can be added to or taken away from Perfection.

I am, therefore, not going to interfere with Perfection by going on fad diets, or using creams to make me look younger etc. While I do eat and use creams, I do so with the understanding that nothing I eat makes any difference to my real body; nor does food make me feel more or less healthy. No cream I use can make any difference to the beauty that I innately am. I certainly am not going to do any exercises to make my body firmer. I don't need to do anything.

As for my body, it's stayed the same weight - 8 stone (112 pounds) - for the last five years, which is ideal for my frame and height (5'6). I also maintain a youthful appearance; I look years younger than my human years.

While I haven't as yet attained physical perfection in every way, I know the perfect idea already exists in Mind and is manifesting perfectly.

I don't make resolutions. I'm only interested in experiencing the real Me that is always perfect.

All the very best.

Enocia

Related article: Do Food Supplements and Diets Work?

The Death Penalty

2005-12-15T14:38:00.000Z

With the recent debate over the death penalty of Stanley "Tookey" Williams in America, I am now re-posting an article I wrote a while ago in my other blog called Law and Grace.

With love,
Enocia

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Monday, November 08, 2004

Law and Grace

"For the law was given by Moses, but grace and truth came by Jesus Christ." (John 1: 17)
How does forgiveness work? Can you forgive yourself, someone else or a situation, when you are living by the law? Is this not a contradiction in terms?

It is written in the scriptures that Paul was instrumental in disseminating Christianity. In Romans chapter 7, Paul gives his interpretation of the law as was given by Moses. Our modern laws are derived from the laws of Moses, the do's and don'ts of society. Let's look at what Paul has to say about the law.

"For I was alive without the law once: but when the commandment came, sin revived, and I died. " (Romans 7: 9)
"For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do. Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me. " (Romans 7: 19:-21)
"I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin." (Romans 7: 25)
In this chapter, Paul is discussing two laws: one that is carnal (of mortals); and one that is spiritual. He is saying that sin came about because of the law of Moses. What does he mean by this?

Let's take the legal system as an example. We are led to believe that we need the law to have order in society. Has the human idea of justice brought about peace? Do me a favour! On the contrary, the law instills fear. I have noticed that in bus and train stations in London, there are intermittent announcements reminding people to look after their belongings and that the stations are under 24 hour surveillance. In the eyes of the law, they are trying to protect customers from crime. If you are trying to protect someone, it means you are living in fear of crime. Indeed, you are expecting crime. The legal system would not exist if they didn't believe that man is inherently evil. This is what Paul means by "I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me." (Romans 7: 21)

Say someone has committed a crime. While the law states that you are innocent until proven guilty, there is no real opportunity for the "criminal" to be given a second chance. What if the person recognises the "error" of his ways? What if he is seeking forgiveness? Society doesn't allow for that. What usually happens is you still have to go through the legal system and the case is brought to court. As far as society is concerned, if you do the crime you have to serve the time.

I believe Paul is saying the very law that was created to instill order in society has augmented the very sin it was trying to protect us from. The moment you see a sign in a public place that warns you thieves are around, the sign is also suggesting you and others are thieves. I use libraries frequently and the safety signs are always around. There is a particular library where the security guard makes hourly reminders for people to be vigilant. I have never been in a library that attracts more "crime." If you take the signs and announcements to heart, you shouldn't be surprised when you experience crime. That's the law for you; it is impersonal. In other words, if you live by the law you will die by the law. The only way to stop living by the law is by grace.

Paul writes:

"There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death." (Romans 8: 1-2)
Before I discuss what I understand by Grace, let me first of all address the statement in the scriptures: "For the law was given by Moses, but grace and truth came by Jesus Christ." (John 1: 17) In my opinion, this statement is not true. How can it be true when the law and grace pre-dates Moses and Jesus? Before Moses there was still fear. You only have to study other religions that predate Judaism to discover that each religion has their version of the law. Moses simply introduced a law that was relevant for his day. The same is true for truth and grace. The personality in the scriptures called Jesus knew his nature as truth and grace. He did not bring about or create truth and grace. There have been many others, who have experienced life knowing their nature is truth and grace.

What is Grace? Grace is a way of experiencing one's nature that knows only love. This love doesn't judge anyone. Love doesn't care whether you've committed, in human standard, a heinous crime. When you repent, change your mind about what you've done, Grace can remove all evidence of "error", if you are open to it. What do I mean by "changing your mind?" I mean realising that your behaviour is not who you are, that you were only acting according to the beliefs you had. Changing your mind is realising your true identity and trusting your nature to help you make a new choice according to what you believe to be true.

Trial by jury is the human version of justice. Actually, Grace knows nothing of justice or forgiveness for that matter as no one has ever erred under the law of Grace. Grace, therefore, has no part in the legal system. If you are seeking Grace, don't expect it from the law. Mortals don't do Grace. Their long-term memories will not allow it.

In Joseph Murphy's book "Amazing Laws of Cosmic Mind," he discusses a man who had murdered someone and was in death row. During the time when the man was waiting to be executed, he prayed for forgiveness and forgave himself. He had invoked the law of Grace. When it came for him to be executed, they couldn't hang him. They tried several times but the mechanism wouldn't work. They had to set him free. Grace had set him free.

Earlier this year I absent-mindedly walked out of a library with a library book in my bag. The alarm went off, but someone in front held the barrier open so I could walk through. The librarians looked up but none of them called me back, which they usually do when the alarm goes off. Usually, the alarm will lock the barrier but in my case someone let me walk through. I realised later on I had a library book in my bag. I returned it the next day back on the shelf.

The law of Grace, Spirit, takes no account of what is going on in the laws of man. Grace is the equivalent of someone trying to look at quantum particles with a microscope. You're not going to find the particles because they operate under a different principle. Grace would heal someone instantly without taking into account temporal factors such as time. I remember years ago when my mother sprained her ankle, I prayed for her and commanded her to get up and walk. She was instantly healed. This is Grace at work.

If people are open, Grace can reverse all evidence of "error" as one defines "error." It is written in the scriptures,

"I will overturn, overturn, overturn, it: and it shall be no more." (Ezekiel 21: 27).
An example of Grace at work is the many documented cases of near death experiences, where medical records show the individual had died but had been resurrected. I believe Grace can create resurrection at a mass level if people are open to the idea. I believe if humanity is open, we will witness people who have been killed in wars rise up as if the wars never happened. Alas, this does happen but in a reality only a few people are able to experience. People who have died are "waking up" and realising they are still alive. There is much survival evidence out there from those who have supposedly passed away.

Which leads to another question. What if the purpose of physical life, as we are experiencing it, is to demonstrate that Grace is the only law? When you experience Grace as law, you will experience life as eternal. You will not experience sickness and old age. If you experience sickness you will be instantly healed by Grace. You will live as long as you wish and then move to another reality without having to go through death. I am fascinated by the story of Ramtha who supposedly lived life and ascended without going through death. Whether it happened or not, I like the idea of ascension very much because I know it is possible.

I believe my purpose on earth right now is to live as Spirit and demonstrate that Grace is the only law.

I am Grace,
Enocia

How Lovely to Be Proven Wrong!

2005-12-15T11:16:00.000Z

Two days ago, a woman bus driver I've seen lots of times before came on my bus. She said hello and sat beside me. It turned out she knew the man on the other seat. She explained to me that the man was an old friend from school from over 20 years ago.

"Wow, how amazing!" I said. "I don't know anyone from school. I don't even know anyone from college."

This morning when I arrived at the library it was still closed. Instead of hanging around, I decided to check out a local cosmetics shop a friend had recommended. As I walked down this road a woman walking towards me called my name. She was an old friend from college. What a lovely surprise!

The last time I saw her was ten years ago at our graduation ceremony. She said she was now training as an occupational therapist at the local hospital just up the road. It's funny how we've been coming to the same area and never met before. We had a chat and exchanged contact details. She even gave me the email address of another college friend who now lives in Australia.

As for the shop I wanted, it was closed.

It's so good to be proven wrong about not knowing any of my college friends. Rekindling friendships is only a thought away.

With love,
Enocia

Excellent Advice, Not!

2005-12-15T11:04:00.000Z

On a bus journey yesterday I heard this man moaning to his friend about another passenger.

"You always get yourself into a situation, don't you?" his friend chuckled. "You'll find any excuse to pick a fight with someone."

"You must find another way to resolve issues without getting into a fight," his friend continued. "Next time you get into a situation, count to ten, then give him a slap."

This was followed by raucous laughter.

People are soooo funny!

Have a good day and stay out of mischief.

Enocia

In the Know

2005-12-15T10:30:00.000Z

Yesterday evening at a bus station, this woman asked me which bus goes down a particular road. I told her. She seemed agitated. She said she didn't like waiting. Was there another bus she could take? I suggested another route but that route didn't come to the bus station.

Come to think of it, maybe I should go on Mastermind and make London Buses my specialist subject. I know enough about bus routes in London, way too much information I reckon.

Anyway, it turned out the woman was waiting for the same bus I was. I said our bus would soon be ready She asked me where I was going and I said I was going into town.

"Can't you take the tube (underground)?" she said. "It's a long way to travel by bus."
"I love travelling by bus," I said.
"I know some people who don't like travelling by tube," she said. "I have a friend who gets really claustrophobic when she's on the tube."
"Really?"
"Yes she does. Me, I don't think of anything, I just get on the tube and go where I want to and I'm fine."
"Yes, when you don't worry about it, everything works out fine," I said.

When our bus arrived we parted company as she wanted to sit downstairs and I went upstairs.

I thought about what the woman had said: "Me, I don't think of anything, I just get on the tube and go where I want to and I'm fine."

I believe we all know that within us there is a place that is beyond fear. This is the place of "no thought" and "no thing." When you are not thinking there is nothing to be afraid of.

We are all in the know. If only we could all live with this knowledge and experience life from the space of no thought. We will always be in perfect peace.

With love,
Enocia

Lonely Heart

2005-12-14T14:51:00.001Z

Single attractive female WLTM AC/DC sado-masochist male who is into nuts and raisins for romance and more. Reply PO Box. WHIP ME8. No time wasters please.

Enocia

Joke of the Day

2005-12-14T14:48:00.001Z

I read the following on another board.

A man walks into the doctor's and says "Should I be worried if I think I might be a S&M necrophiliac who's into bestiality? Or am I just flogging a dead horse here?"
Hahaha!

Enocia

As Easy as Anything

2005-12-14T13:23:00.000Z

If you could ask for anything what would it be?

Would you ask for wisdom, power, love, money, beauty, peace, perfection, joy?

I would ask for lots of make-up, moisturising cream, clothes, a brand new series of Sex and the City, and my very own chocolate factory.

OK, if I was really pushed I would add that I want to be all that God is.

Besides, the question of being God is a redundant one because there is nothing but God. So I would ask to know what God is.

At the risk of sounding trite, let me quote that passage from the scriptures again:

"Be still, and know that I am God." (Psalm 46: 10)
Being still is the simplest way to be all that God is.

We have already got the silence or stillness within. To be silent we must have no thoughts.

Unconditional love is as easy as pie when you are in silence. You cannot judge someone when you are not thinking.

Having peace is as easy as abc when you are in silence. You cannot fret over something when you are not thinking?

When you are in the presence of someone who is in silence, you feel a presence which one could describe as love or peace. The silence is simply a space of no thoughts. Where there are no thoughts you are not drawn into putting experiences into categories; you are not drawn into concepts; you are simply being the no thing.

See, being God is as easy as anything.

Enocia

DoBeDoBeDo

2005-12-14T12:50:00.000Z

Is life about doing or being?

Now that I am always in silence, everything I do is from the silence.

The words that I am typing now are emerging from the silence, working through this body and being transferred on to the computer screen.

I honestly don't know the difference now between being and doing, there is only the silence.

DoBeDoBeDo, DoBeDoDoBeDoBeBeDo.

DoBe
Do
Be
Do
Be
Do

Silence.

Enocia

A New Phase

2005-12-13T14:33:00.001Z

I've been putting all my articles in order. They're now all done for Vector8 Journals and The One in All. I will continue to update the list for this blog as and when.

It's now making a lot of sense why I've produced these blogs.

A while back I went into a retreat. I had received the "call" to be Self. It was also time to integrate the wisdom I had accumulated and see how they related to who I was being. So I spent time meditating and contemplating truth. I ended up filling a whole book with my thoughts. For a few weeks, I kept hearing this loud flute-like sound in my head that no one else could hear, which drove me bonkers. I continued to meditate and one day the sound disappeared and I was left with profound silence.

Just before I finished the retreat, I felt this Presence, a being of Light that I believe to be my Real Self. The Presence told me to go into the world and share my experiences with others.

This is what I have been doing. The articles in Vector8 Journals represent experiences from the perspective of Mind. I am trying to make sense of all the wisdom I have accrued and see how they relate to who I am. The best way to know if I've fully integrated this "wisdom" is to test them in life experiences. Then I had to let go all wisdom and trust in my own vision of the One. Thus, articles in the The One in All represent my perspective of the One.

Though I have different experiences, there is a core centre, my Real Self, that is unaffected by my human experiences. Self is always the same. As Self, I view the world from the place of silence.

I feel it's now time to take a rest and just be from Silence.

I look forward to sharing more experiences from the place of Silence.

With love,
Enocia

Practising Transparency - Dissolving Programmes

2005-12-13T10:00:00.000Z

In the film, Groundhog Day, Phil (played by Bill Murray) is stuck on Groundhog Day that keeps repeating itself over and over again. Even after committing suicide, he wakes up on the same day. Phil decides to use the time to get to know humanity. Only when he falls in love is he released from that day.

In the ordinary reality of thoughts and appearances, we are constantly putting experiences into boxes and categories. That's what the mind does. You end up linking thoughts with like-thoughts, coming to conclusions etc. Mind is also the realm of cause/effect. When someone says something, mind immediately thinks of consequences. You think "Doesn't she realise that what she's just said will lead her to have such an experience?" You end up judging someone thus adding more weight to their thoughts.

On the other hand, when I practise transparency by being in silence no matter what, silence dissolves the power of words and thoughts. Put another way, words and thoughts are like reading a film script where the words are just words. It is actors emotions that bring the script to life. In silence, words and thoughts revert to their original intent which is formlessness. So let's say someone is saying stuff that most people consider to be offensive, when I listen in silence, I find the words have no impact, and no power.

I have also noticed that my body speaks a lot in thought forms that we collectively define as pain. For instance, when I've been sitting in one position for a long time, my neck has something to say about that. What I do is I listen in silence and it soon passes away.

I believe we are only experiencing the one "Groundhog Day," which is going round and round like a revolving door. We've all gone through the human programming where we've been taught to rely on our senses. Each "day" gives us the opportunity to be the One Self. When you are the Self in every circumstance, you are released from the human programme.

With love,
Enocia

Related article: Practising Transparency

What You Believe is Possible is What is Possible for You

2005-12-12T12:02:00.001Z

Last night my mother and I watched the evangelist, Peter Popoff on television; which has people giving testimonies about healing and financial miracles they have received after they using the miracle spring water.

"I'm really puzzled about something."I said to mum. "If these people are having healing miracles and financial deliverance, how come God isn't making them completely whole?"

"What do you mean?" mum said.

"I mean, how come they still look old. Couldn't they ask God for their youth to be restored? Is this the best God can do?"

"I don't think these people think the way you do," mum said, "otherwise, religious leaders wouldn't age and die."

"I guess most Christians are so focused on life after death, it doesn't occur to them that they can have that life now."

Mum agreed.

Call me blinkered, but why would I want to wait for life when I can have the fullness of life now? According to the scriptures, Jesus says

"I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." (John 10: 10)
I would have thought this means abundant life now, which includes radiant health, being ageless, and just living life to the full now, not having to wait till some future time.

The way I see it, there is no death, there is only life. I am 100% having life right here and right now. When I am no longer in form I am formless light, which is still eternal life.

It seems to me that what we believe is possible is what we have as our experiences. As I am only focused on living life now, it is in my own best interest to open myself up to all possible realities now. God, who can dissolve a "terminal disease" in an instant, can surely make one look and feel ageless.

All things are possible NOW.

Enocia

God Will Fix It

2005-12-12T11:23:00.001Z

I recently asked my friend, Ben, to produce a fractal which reflects my Real Self that is already perfect, therefore, nothing can be added to or taken away from perfection. He promised me he would.

When I received the fractal I tried to post it on my blog. While it appeared on the profile page it didn't appear on the web page. I thought it was a source problem and asked Ben for advice. I tried uploading the picture from Ben's source but it still wouldn't appear on the web page.

Next, I got in contact with the Blogger Helpdesk who haven't got back to me as yet.

Yesterday, I sent an email to Ben thanking him again for his help. Though the problem wasn't yet resolved, I wrote:

"Not to worry; God who produced the fractal as Ben Gilberti will surely find a way for the fractal to appear on my web page." :-)
I'm pleased to announce God has sorted the problem out but in another way. I was inspired to check out a friend's blog called The Kahdoosch Bag and compare his html codes with mine. I soon saw there were some codes missing from mine that were preventing the fractal from appearing on my web page. I soon fixed it. In other words, God fixed it as me.

Thank you dear friends for all your help.

With love,
Enocia

Related articles: We are Source Codes

Making Something Out of Nothing

2005-12-10T14:35:00.000Z

Last Wednesday, a new reality television show started on Channel 4 called Space Cadets. It's about twelve ordinary members of the public who have been recruited to train as space cadets. A few of them will spend time orbiting space. The cadets are flown to Russia to have their space training.

What the cadets don't realise is they are in a "disused military base" in Suffolk in the UK. The television company has gone to great lengths to make the training ground look and feel like Russia. These cadets seriously believe they are now in Russia and being trained to go to space.

In a twist to the tale, not all the cadets are ignorant of their predicament; three of them are actors.

In last night's programme, their Russian physical instructor, Val, put the cadets through rigorous exercises. A few of the actors came into the diary room to complain that they hadn't expected their jobs to be this hard. One actor got sick after and he was withdrawn from the programme. All that pain for nothing.

They also showed the cadets having lectures about space travel. Part of what they were being taught was fact, the rest was bogus! The students were frantically taking notes while one actor was trying hard not to laugh. The cadets even took part in a communication role play. All for nothing.

The idea is only four of them will be selected to orbit space. The cadets, not in the know, are going to try to do all they can to be selected. All that competitiveness for nothing.

While the game seems like a cruel hoax, I believe it is not that different from our predicament here on Earth. When I think of how much time I've spent learning how to be a human, like what to eat and what not to eat, and it's all been for nothing. Now I'm letting go of everything I thought I knew so I can be empty and be who I really am. How ironic!

I have also realised that though I appear to be on Earth, I have never left my real home in Spirit. I feel like one of the actors in the know pretending to go through the human rituals in order not to give myself away.

I believe Space Cadets is a brilliant Masterclass for the human condition; the art of making something out of nothing.

It's only TV but I love it.

Enocia

Related articles: Of Beliefs and Chasing Tails; Mind-Meld

Practising Transparency

2005-12-10T13:28:00.001Z

"The heathen raged, the kingdoms were moved: he uttered his voice, the earth melted...Be still, and know that I am God." (Psalm 46: 6; 10)
Yesterday on my bus home, I heard several people speaking on their mobile phones at the same time. One woman was sitting behind me speaking in Polish. Did I get worked up about how loud her voice was? No. I was very grateful to all of them to enable me to practise transparency.

What do I mean by practising transparency? Being transparent means being in silence no matter what?

I see all forms and experiences as thought forms. In other words, people, animals, plants, buildings, the weather, mobile phones, words, thoughts, emotions, everything, are all thought forms. When I practise transparency I am like a sieve that lets all thoughts permeate through. Silence dissolves thoughts into silence.

Another way to define transparency is acceptance. Only when I am being in silence can I accept without resisting or reacting to an experience or thought form.

Transparency could be applied to any situation you don't wish to experience as form.

Instead of complaining how cold or hot the weather is, I remain in silence and let the thought forms dissolve into silence. Then, I am neither hot nor cold.

I practise transparency when I am watching the news or a TV programme I don't wish to take on board.

I practise transparency to dissolve thought forms of pain.

Of course, when I wish to have an experience, I give the thought form my attention. As you can see, I made myself transparent to mobile phone users on the bus. Now I am giving that same experience my attention as a way to practise transparency.

Modern life is a great opportunity to practise transparency. I can either see people as irritating and "pressing my buttons" or I can be grateful to them for allowing me to practise transparency.

When I am practising transparency I am being the One in all.

With love,
Enocia

Related article: Practising Transparency - Dissolving Programmes

Life is a Game

2005-12-09T14:37:00.000Z

I recently saw a repeat of Derren Brown’s show: The Gathering. Brown "describes his craft as a mixture of magic, suggestion, psychology, misdirection and showmanship."

In one segment he gets a taxi driver to look at a map and to imagine himself taking a customer from one destination to the next. Brown asks the driver to take a long-winded route to his destination. When the driver has finished, Brown asks the driver to tell him the route; Brown draws the route, the driver has taken in his imagination, on the map. Brown makes a note of the page and map code. Then Brown reveals that before the show, he had also written the same page number, map code and final destination. As you can imagine, the taxi driver and the audience were flummoxed by Derren Brown’s abilities. How could he have known what route the driver would take in his imagination?

While I don’t claim to know Brown’s strategy, I can only imagine that Brown had put out an intention about the destination he had in mind; and wherever there is an intention there is a consciousness willing to play out that intention. Intention and consciousness arise as one. Naturally, Brown attracted someone willing to play the game. As Brown says at the end of the show, "Thank you for playing."

Life is a game. While players may appear to be losers on the human level, on the level of the Game Master, there are no losers. You see at the level of Spirit, we are all happy to support one another because we all know that there is really only one Player. As Spirit, we all know that we are One so when one gains we all gain.

Life is a game. The game is the intention and the players are consciousness. Wherever there is an intention, there is always a willing consciousness to carry out that intention. Intention and consciousness always arise as one. This means that whatever you can think of already exists. All you have to say is NOW!

I am a player.

Enocia

Information Overload

2005-12-09T14:15:00.000Z

In last night’s episode of Star Trek Voyager called The The Voyager Conspiracy, Seven-of-Nine, the half-human and half-Borg has downloaded the entire ship's database in her memory and trying to process the information. Each time she interprets the data she currently has, she comes up with conspiracy theories about various crewmembers’ agendas. She always has facts to back up her theories. It gets to a point when the First Officer starts to suspect the Captain’s motives; and vice versa. Seven-of-Nine ends up fleeing the ship in a delta flyer because she believes the Captain is manipulating her for her own selfish ends. The doctor notifies the Captain that Seven-of-Nine is suffering from information overload. The Captain pursues Seven-of-Nine and reminds her of how much she is loved and admired by the crew.

This episode is mirroring life as we know it. There is so much information. There are books constantly being produced, and masses of information on the Internet. I am also doing my part to add more information on the Internet. It’s not my fault I am constantly inspired. (grin)

As there is so much data around, it is easy for anyone to come up with new theories because there’s always something to back them up. Theories give rise to conflicted beliefs and conflicted beliefs give rise to conspiracies theories. Conspiracy theories and conflicted theories create fragmentations where people find it difficult trusting one another; or form alliances with those who share similar beliefs so they can oppose others with disparate beliefs.

Where did all this information come from? There is only one source but there are many interpretations of that source. Similarly, there is only One Life but there are infinite variations of the One Life. You could say that your life is an interpretation of the One Life.

What to do with so much information? How does one avoid creating conflicting theories?

I find the best way to avoid information overload is by information under-load. This means that I am only interested in data that makes sense to my life now; otherwise, my mind is a blank.

I believe the most important information is the One Love we all share. Nothing else matters.

Enocia

Wow! It's Magic - Part Deux

2005-12-08T19:16:00.000Z

While I was busy listing these articles in alphabetical order in the library, I thought about the little boy I had written about in the piece, Wow! It's Magic!. I wonder how he is. The last time I saw him I didn't think he recognised me.

After a few minutes, I heard someone saying hello. I looked up and saw that it was my little friend from the aforementioned piece.

"Hi mate, good to see you!" I said. He kept me company for a minute or so then he was off to play with his friend.

Life is magic!

Enocia

What an Idiot!

2005-12-08T17:10:00.000Z

In the library, a boy beside me asks his friend: "How do you spell 'idiot'?"

Being the compassionate soul that I am, I say to him, "If you don't know how to spell the word, you must be an idiot!"

The boy and I exchange grins.

From one idiot to another.

Enocia

The Significance of the Number 40

2005-12-08T13:13:00.000Z

I've been thinking about some examples in the Bible when the number 40 appears.

During the flood when Noah, his family and the animals were in the ark, "the rain was upon the earth forty days and forty nights." (Genesis 7: 12)

When Moses went up the mountain to receive the Ten Commandments on behalf of the Israelites, on which most of human laws are based, he was in the mountain for 40 days and 40 nights.

"When I was gone up into the mount to receive the tables of stone, even the tables of the covenant which the LORD made with you, then I abode in the mount forty days and forty nights, I neither did eat bread nor drink water:

"And the LORD delivered unto me two tables of stone written with the finger of God; and on them was written according to all the words, which the LORD spake with you in the mount out of the midst of the fire in the day of the assembly.

"And it came to pass at the end of forty days and forty nights, that the LORD gave me the two tables of stone, even the tables of the covenant." (Deuteronomy 9: 9-11)
The Israelites were supposed to have wandered in the wilderness for 40 years before they came to the Promised Land.

"And the LORD's anger was kindled against Israel, and he made them wander in the wilderness forty years, until all the generation, that had done evil in the sight of the LORD, was consumed." (Numbers 32: 13)
In Psalm 95:

"Forty years long was I grieved with this generation, and said, It is a people that do err in their heart, and they have not known my ways." (Psalm 95: 10)
There is also the story of Jesus thus:

"Then was Jesus led up of the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted of the devil. And when he had fasted forty days and forty nights, he was afterward an hungred." (Matthew 4: 1-2)
The stories in the Bible can be read in two ways: as stories of events or as symbols and life maps. I tend to see the Bible as a life map with symbols and codes.

The number 40 seems to be a code. It represents a period of tests and trials we all go through. Would a God of Love want to put people through tests and trials? No! I believe these tests are symbolic of the mortal dream where we see ourselves as only flesh and blood humans struggling for survival. Life as a mortal is a series of tests until one awakens from the dream of mortality to the truth that one is Spirit.

The stories of the Israelites represents the human existence. They had had lots of demonstrations how their needs were being met by God. During their escape from Egypt, God parted the Red Sea so they could go through. According to the Bible, for six days a week, the Israelites received Manna (some kind of bread) from God to sustain them. Yet, they still found something to complain about. It was their lack of faith in God that kept them in the wilderness when they were so close to the Promised Land. The Bible says they were in the wilderness for 40 years. As I have said, the number 40 is a code. It could be they wandered for 40 years, less than 40, or a lot longer.

Let's take the example of Jesus who was led into the wilderness and stayed there 40 days and 40 nights, while he was tempted by the devil. (For the full story read Matthew 4: 1-11) "Wilderness" appears to be another code that represents a "dry period" in one's life. This "dry period" is the transition where one is letting go of human beliefs and trusting in Spirit/God as source.

If you've been so used to the human existence, depending on what your senses tell you, living as Spirit is a whole different ball game. You are trusting in a reality that you can't discern with the senses. The trials are really your human habits, senses and beliefs testing you. They will say,

"How can you trust in God for supply?"
"Look at you, you've got nothing and you're starving."
"Where is this God of yours?"
"Why would your powerful God want to see you suffer?"
"I don't see anything going on."
"Stop acting so stupid and come back to earth where you really belong!"

Let me just reiterate that the tests are not of God. God is ever present to wake you up from the dream of believing in only what you can see. But your senses could prevent you from realising His presence. Being unaware of God's presence is like being so close to a stream and dying of thirst.

The number 40 represents tests and trials, when you are still dreaming you are "only human" and having to do things the hard way, not the period the tests last. Depending on how fast you awaken, the period can last for weeks, months or years. But it's a test everyone goes through. Some people are too busy dreaming to even consider there is another way to be.

There are myriads of ways one can be tested.

You could be tested by illness; you have to wake up by realising God is all there is therefore you are already perfect.

You could be tested by the world that wants you to live according to its standards and beliefs; you have to wake up and realise that God's way is the only way.

You could be tested by poverty; you have to wake up and realise that God is supply.

It seems stupid that we have to go through tests but they are not tests as such. We are simply waking up to the truth of reality, that life is God. As you become aware of the God presence in you and in all, you have access to Real Power. Then we can live as we are meant to live without struggling, sickness or death; for that which is Perfection and Love is Infinite Life and Infinite Joy.

With love,
Enocia

It's Only a Love Game

2005-12-07T12:22:00.000Z

Is anger real or how one perceives reality?

I've been playing with a friend on a message board where I've been making up anagrams for the word "custard." I also told him the anagram for Enocia (see Text Message). As I've been dying to use the quip I heard recently, I responded to his message: "I see your point but I still think you're full of shit."

My friend took the words literally and responded with an "angry" response. I decided to continue playing the game of "being annoyed." I wrote a funny response back stating we were now at war. My friend responded:

"LOL - you made me angry too. You can't be calling me full of sh*t and expecting a simple 'meow' in response."
My response was:

"___, you have to realise something about me, I am NEVER angry. I was only messing with you."
I asked my friend whether he had noticed the demonstration of oneness. We have been discussing "custard" and I watched an episode of Blackadder Goes Forth on television last night that mentions "custard." My friend mentions "meow" the noise cats make and "cat" was also mentioned in the episode thus:

Blackadder: One thing puzzles me Baldrick; how did you manage to get so much custard out of such a small cat? Blackadder script
I never get angry because, as I see it, there is nothing for me to get angry about. Of course, how people react to what I write or say is their choice.

It's only a Love Game.

In the Love Game, I see only oneness.

Enocia

Text Message

2005-12-07T12:04:00.000Z

My name is Enocia.

One anagram for "Enocia" in a text message format is

I c a One
This means I see and know only the One. I see and know only oneness.

With love,
Enocia

Maps

2005-12-07T09:50:00.000Z

Last night, I saw an old episode of the comedy, Blackadder Goes Forth. It is about a group of British Army officers and the antics they get up to during the Great War (circa 1917). In this episode, General Melchett is looking for an artist for a special assignment. Believing he's going to be sent to Paris or somewhere further afield, Captain Blackadder uses his wiles to get himself on the mission. Unfortunately, his plans backfire on him and he's sent to No Man's Land to observe the Germans and report back by painting what is going on.

Blackadder and his sidekicks, Lt George and Private Baldrick are lying on enemy lines. George is the real artist of course.

Blackadder: Now, where the hell are we?

George: Well, it's difficult to say, we appear to have crawled into an area marked with mushrooms.

Blackadder: [patiently] What do those symbols denote?

George: Pfff. That we're in a field of mushrooms?

Blackadder: Lieutenant, that is a military map, it is unlikely to list interesting flora and fungi. Look at the key and you'll discover that those mushrooms aren't for picking.

George: Good Lord, you're quite right sir, it says "mine". So, these mushrooms must belong to the man who made the map.

Blackadder: Either that, or we're in the middle of a mine-field.

[...]

George: Oh sir, just one thing. If we should happen to tread on a mine, what do we do?

Blackadder: Well, normal procedure, Lieutenant, is to jump 200 feet into the air and scatter yourself over a wide area. Captain Cook
Hahaha! This comedy is a real hoot.

Blackadder makes an interesting point. You don't expect to find vegetables and flowers listed on a military map. Nor would you look at a map of Birmingham to find your way around London. And the map is a guide only of the place. If you really want to know the area, you're going to have to explore it yourself.

Go into any bookshop and look under the "Mind, Body, Spirit" section or "Spirituality" and you'll see hundreds of books on spirituality. They range from personal experiences to teachings. Some teachings are so arcane you have to go to specialist bookshops to find them. I see all books as maps only, rough guides to the topic; and I never take them as gospel. Only what I experience is what I consider to be real.

While what I am sharing in this blog are real for me, they are but maps only for readers. Please do not expect to have identical experiences. We are all unique and we all have our unique ways of experiencing the world. These writings are not intended to instruct; they are rough guides for those on a similar "path." If you want to know who you are, you're going to have to walk the "path" yourself, and trust in who you are.

Finally, may I remind readers that I am not a spiritual teacher; we have enough of them already.

We already have all the resources we need.

With love,
Enocia

What is Service?

2005-12-06T12:31:00.001Z

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts." (Isaiah 55: 8-9)

"And every one that hath forsaken houses, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my name's sake, shall receive an hundredfold, and shall inherit everlasting life. But many that are first shall be last; and the last shall be first." (Matthew 19: 29-30)
The spiritual path hasn't been an easy one for me. I have found that God's ways and the human ways are like chalk and cheese. God and mortals are two different species trying to communicate and failing badly.

Have you ever had a nightmare where you are being chased, or something terrifying is happening to you? All you want is to get away from the monster. The human way is to dream a nicer dream but God’s way is simple: "Wake up! You're dreaming." So let's say you're starving and can't afford to buy food, the human way is to find money by any means necessary so you can get some food. If you are one who is supposed to be walking by Spirit, God will remind you that you are Spirit. As it is written:

"Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God." (Matthew 4: 4)
When you are not thinking of anything, food is the last thing on your mind. (chuckle)

You could be calling on God to help you get out of a situation by such and such a time. If you are in tune with the Spirit within, you realise that the Spirit is in bliss. Time is meaningless to the Spirit. As the scriptures put it,

"For a thousand years in thy sight are but as yesterday when it is past, and as a watch in the night." (Psalm 90: 4)
This means no time passes; one day is the same as any other day. Put another way, to God, the 1 January 2006 is the same as 1 January 15006.

Now you see what I mean about human (mortal) and God's ways being totally different? "Houston, we have a problem!"

When you still have needs of food, clothing and shelter but find you are being led by the Spirit who doesn't, how do you get your human needs taken care of? Here’s one solution which I experienced yesterday evening.

When the bus I wanted arrived, there was a mad rush. Everyone was scrambling and pushing others out of the way to get a seat. There were way too many people for the tiny bus. I had no intention of fighting so I stood back. I figured if people needed the bus so badly they can all go ahead. A woman queuing up beside me glanced at me. I felt a lot of love for her and smiled at her. I beckoned to her to get on ahead of me, but she said, "No, you go ahead." We all got on board though I had to stand up. A seat was soon available right near where I was standing.

Most people believe that the spiritual path is being of service to God, the High Self, Spirit or whatever you believe in. It's actually the reverse; it is God being of service. How can God be of service? Because God, who has everything, is in need of nothing. God is taking forms so He can perform Self-service. When I put someone else’s need before my own, it is God working in me, being of service. What happens is sometimes my very act of service awakens the God in the other who also wants to be of service. This is why the other woman refused to get in front of me. And she’ll experience someone else being of service to her...and so it continues.

Serving one another is how God meets our human needs.

Consider the reality where you're only thinking of yourself against the world. You live in a reality where everyone is scrambling to reach the finishing line. You’ll do everything in your power to be the first past the post. This is not a peaceful approach; it is a "dog eat dog" world.

On the other hand, when you live with the realisation that God is all in all, there is no need to struggle or compete with others. There is only God who lacks nothing. But God knows that humans have needs. These needs are taken care of by being of service which meets all human needs until such time when you no longer have these needs or they can be met in another way.

Of course, it all makes sense. I've been doing this all along on an unconscious level. I tend to put others first because it makes for an easy life. But I've noticed that when I put another's needs first mine are taken care of.

Now that doesn't mean that service always awakens the God in another. You could let twenty people in front of you and only a few might respond by being grateful let alone be of service to another. Service is therefore unconditional. In other words, you don’t serve so others can serve you; you serve because it is your nature to serve. Similarly, you don’t give to receive; you give because it is your nature to give. Your needs will be taken care of anyway because that's how it is.

And when I am grateful to someone for services rendered it is actually God in the person that I am being grateful to.

When I went home last night I asked my mother about her church Christmas lunch she had attended. She said she had fun and she'd brought me a piece of cake and some chocolate. The cake was delicious and filled with raisins, which I love. I asked her if she’d enjoyed the cake. She said she had given her piece to me. I offered her some but she insisted I should have it.

I see God serving Self in two ways. First, God wakes me out of any delusion I might have and shows me what is real. Second, God uses me to serve by putting others' needs before my own. By meeting others' needs, I am helping to awaken God in the other, and meeting my own needs.

"And the last shall be first."

With love,
Enocia

Come-back of the Day

2005-12-06T10:04:00.003Z

I'm in a bus. We are waiting for passengers to get on at a bus stop. The bus is now full. I can hear a woman trying to get on the bus with a buggy (push chair). The driver tells her there is no space, but she still insists she should be let on.

"No, you can't come in unless you want to ride on the roof!" the driver says.

Hehehe!

I love come-backs, don't you?

Enocia